what a 30th Dec 2009!

Great. I fainted a.k.a KO for my first time in Makati, and it happens just right before the new year turns in. I don't have any idea of why and how I passed out, but I'm lucky to have Bobby with me that time....

It happened at Hap Chan Restaurant, we were having late supper around 1.30a.m. We chatted happily until I felt uneasy and I told B that I feel like vomiting. In fact, I don't even sure if all I wanted was to vomit. I just felt a sudden loss of mind and I felt cold all over....I tried to get up and excused myself to the washroom. My last memory was the toilet door is locked and I turned around to get back to my table.....

And there and then, I fainted. Just boomphh....right there.

I don't even know how long I've passed out, but all I heard was Bobby's voice calling me...I knew my eyes are opened, but I couldn't see a single thing. I hold B so tightly, I even asked him "B, are my eyes open? I can't see you...."

Fainting this time feels like a cut of signal on tv. You don't get any visuals, just dark and you hear all kinds of funny voices around. And for that single moment, I thought I'm blind. And it scares the hell out of me.

Of course, I'm better now. I get pains on my left shoulder and neck; and a few bruises on my knee. The worst bruise I got on my chin - because B said I fell faced down.....



Hope the worst is over, and a new year may bring new beginning, new hopes and better luck.

I shall retreat

I had a dream. It was such a mystical dream, that I couldn't believe it was just a dream. Here I am, woke up into reality; I wish I could write every single detail of the dream I had. A dream I struggle to wake up from.....

The scene ahead of me is so smoky, I couldn't really see where I am. Despite the lousy vision, I can hear birds chirping melodiously, children's laughter and horses galloping. I think I'm at a country-side or something. I try to visualize better and I see beautiful greenery, mountains way up high and soft clouds cuddles. I'm right there standing at a small village...and I see lots of people riding horses. Nobody seems to walk on their own feet there, they move around on horses....

A little girl approaches me and signals that I should have a horse of my own also. Just like everyone else there. So I looked around and I spotted a black horse....not too muscular, with big curly hair and doesn't look too attractive like other horses available. But I thought, maybe I can try to ride this horse and with much love & attention, I might be able to transform him to a better horse.

I rode this horse where ever I go, what ever I do. I put all energy to establish a great undying love with this horse, and I always tell myself; it doesn't matter this is not the perfect horse, it suits me right. However, learning to ride a horse gracefully ain't easy. Throughout the years, I've fallen down, bumped my head on the ground, faces much failure and heart-break with this horse. But I didn't give up just yet, I climb up the horse again and heeee-yaaah...commands it to run further towards the future with me. And there am I, riding the horse I've chosen at this small, neat village - just like others did.

One day, as I rode the horse near to the seaside, the horse gets grumpy again and throws me into the water. He didn't care that I might get hurt or anything, or I could be drowned by the sea....he just needs to throw a tantrum. I was struggling hard to hold on some tree branches along the banks, and fights my way up to get some air. By then, I hear the ding-dong ringing aloud from the light-house. The sound was so deafening and all of a sudden I'm back to the village again - without my horse.

The little girl holds my hand again and said "Maybe you should just leave your horse alone...for awhile. Try to walk with your own feet. Maybe you won't fall....."

I looked everywhere around the village, trying to find a warm, comfortable place for a rest. I walked further into the woods, and I see a big, old cypress tree ahead. I try to make myself comfortable, and rest there....hoping my horse will eventually comes back to me soon....

Two weeks had passed, my horse didn't return to me. Feeling so weak and useless, I crawled back into the village and hope to find the little girl again. She's no where to be seen. Helpless, I began calling my horse's name despite my hoarse voice due to dehydration. From afar, I see a horse coming towards me, but he already have another girl riding on his back this time. She told me to let the horse go, because he was never happy nor contented for having me as his rider. I always feed to much stress and burden to him, and he finally found his best rider in just 2 week's time. Never measure love with any time-line, because years of companionship cannot be compared to love at first sight - or so it seems......

I was left lying in the middle of the road, dangerously curled myself up in a foetus position - didn't care the eerie sound of hundred horses galloping near me. I should be dead, why can't any horses just stomp on me...I can't be anywhere without my horse. I can't be home without him...I'm lonely yet I don't have the courage to ride any horse again...

Just when I thought I can stand on my both feet again and try walking home, only I realized my both legs are gone. I'm paralyzed from waist-down. I never had legs in my life. It was my horse that makes me a person...a complete person....

Memories @ Enchanted Kingdom Manila PHP

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Memories @ Ocean's Park Manila PHP

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Post Xmas, pre-2010~~

Phew...there goes Christmas 2009...! And here comes 2010~~~

My holiday was spent with utmost happiness and enjoyment for the past few days. Apart from the Ocean's Park which I spoke about earlier, went to Enchanted Kingdom too! The EK is adopting the Disney's Land concept, but of course they (the Pinoys) still need lots of efforts and developments in order to achieve the Disney's standard. However, if I need to rate it from 1 - 10, I can still give it an 8 out of 10, slightly better than the Ocean's Park. Its very much like our very own Sunway Lagoon, just without the water park. Other than that, the games are very much alike. Nevertheless, I'm quite satisfied with their effort to create a street fiesta with lots of dancing and singing by the mascots of the park. This part of event surely win more hearts than Sunway Lagoon.

It was a tiring holiday too...so much of walking and "jumping-like-a-kid" around, I almost got full body cramps all over. But, am feeling great that I've enjoyed myself very much....Christmas @ Makati didn't turn out so bad as expected anyway...!

Dong-Jie @ Manila Ocean's Park

Finally, it's Dong Jie 2009 lar...wonder if SuperDad & SuperMom are enjoying their tong yuen at home.....without ME ....Well, am not feeling too bad, because I know for very sure, I'll be home with SuperBags when next year's Dong Jie comes.

Had a full day at Manila Ocean's Park today. It was a nice trip and the mega aquarium had reached my expectations as a tourist. Of course it is nothing compared to those located at HK, Singapore & some other European countries, but the place is still rated 7 out of 10...not too bad for an Asian country huh~

Have planned for Enchanted Kingdom tomorrow, but doubt if can make it -- cos I'm damn tired now! Better rest early. Will update with photos and videos of my journey soon.

Good Night, Pa Ma....Happy Dong Jie

A slow & peaceful Sunday~

Got off-work early again today. There weren't many games on our listing and most of the matches were postponed due to snowy weather at most European countries. Since the workload is not heavy, we are allowed to get off earlier. Most of my colleagues were so excited and their hoo-hahs are leading them to karaoke, pubs or disco. But me, I've decided to stay home and take a good good rest. Well, I've just recovered from food poisoning and I'm feeling rather feverish today. I hope there's nothing serious about the heat, or else I can't really enjoy my planned holidays. I am holding my water bottle now and need to force myself to drink lots (really LOTS) of water to cool down the temperature.

Heard from my friend that this coming Tuesday is Dong-Jie, a Chinese traditional festival celebrated a month before the Lunar New Year. I left a big sigh and think "I'm gonna miss Mom's tong-yuen this year...."

I've always been the most excited one at HOME whenever Dong-Jie arrives. Apparently, I'm the only one that loves to eat tong-yuen that Mom makes. Dad doesn't savor too much of it because it's sweet and Bro is always emotionless and ignorant about this kinda festival thingy. So, every year's Dong-Jie, I would demand Mom to wake me up early morning so I can mold the tong-yuen with her. During the process, despite roundy tong-yuen - you will expect to see bear-shaped tong yuen, moon-shaped tong yuen, and sometimes even Ultraman-faced tong yuen. Of course Mom will complain about this childish behavior, but we both will always finish the task with all smiles and happiness.....

And this year, Mom will have to make tong yuen all by herself.......but I promise, I really promise, we will be doing this together again next year...and all the years afterward.

An aimless Saturday...

My health is getting better already today...Got a good rest at home, and as predicted - lots of rest and proper medication helps along the way...!

My conscience
A part of my inner voice is striking - telling me that I've somehow changed from the "old" person I used to be. Of course I would have expected some kind of transformation while going abroad, good things bad things; but I think I'm more reserved and less truthful it seems. I know consciously that I do make more "white" lies compared to the way I was back home. In short, I am just not as truthful as I used to be. Many things here, you just can't seems to tell the whole truth; maybe just you feel there is a need to protect yourself from something. If you flares too much of your own true colors, you somehow feel naked and not shielded. Working abroad makes you think you need to protect yourself even more than ever. But protecting from what - is not obvious. Knowing this today, I feel a sense of guilt in me. If I need to sway from strangers, what about those whom I love and those who loves me? A lie is a lie; and I don't think I ever wanted to be not so truthful around things shared with my loved ones at all. I need to make a good shift of aura, and remind myself that I do not need to be afraid to say things in my mind whenever I'm with my closest friends/family. I must be able to categorize those people whom I can be truthful with; and those whom I don't need to. I need to gain my consciousness.

Friends
I miss all my friends back at HOME. This is really the difference of friends at work, and friends who grows up with you. Friends here are like acquaintances, people you know but does not leave a great impact in you life. But those bunch of crazy clan I have way back, they are those people that will make you say things like "I would love to hang out with you again" The festive season is around the corner, and 2009 is drawing end, I miss those "reunion" outings we usually have. Of course we were basically busy with our own lives, but those dinner/yam cha moments does counts. Even I do have countless drinking session here in Makati, it really does not compare to those Girl-Night-Out we have back then....that's the difference of friends, and ol'-friends.....I love all of U and I'm sure U know I'm talking about U now...muaks!

My holidays at Makati
Will be spending my Xmas here this year. Planned for an exciting trip to the Enchanted Kingdom, Ocean's Park and parties during the last week of 2009. Look forward to it so much and hopes it does leave us with sweet memories. Dear, let's get geared-up and start the journey soon!

到底什么时候才会想起我?

from naughty to sickie

yeah! Down with food poisoning today. Been pooing for 5 times in between 8.28am - 9.30am. Having cracked lips and shaky legs on the way to the hospital. Doctor says its quite serious to have poo-ed 5 times in less than an hour; and suggested that I get admitted to the hospital for some IV drops...

I REFUSED!

Now, I'm not going to stay in the hospital. It's too scary. So I told the doctor that I'll monitor myself at home first, and should the diarrhea and vomiting persists even after the medication; then I would go for the the IV drops. So doctor agress and let me home - and issued a 2 days MC.

NOW, it's past 5 hours since my first medicine. I didn't go to the toilet so often now, and I don't feel so nauseous anymore. Great smart decision that I didn't get myself admitted to the scary dark hospital ward.

I THINK the doctors here in Philippines are always over-exaggerated. Well, should I get any regular food poisoning way back @ HOME, I don't think Dr. Hu would immediately send me to the hospital without any close supervision first. Well, of course pooing 5 times in an hour sounds bad, but isn't that the case due to no medication given to me yet? Like now, after the antibiotics + stop vomiting + stop diarrhea + painkillers = less need to poo = I'm getting better. Why do I need to get IV drops when I can take fluids (& medicine) orally?

Like my previous visit for a bad sore throat & fever, they demanded I should get a <1 ml blood test for "just-in-case. Arrgggg????? Blood test for some hay fever caused by a sore throat. GREAT. and the doctor actually wrote "Viral Infection" on my report. I think any good doctors back in KL would just diagnose it as "Body Heat / Too Little Water / Too Much Partying" hahahaha....

Any diagnosis they want to make, it's good that I do feel better after medication. And 2 days MC.

Naughty me..

I'm in a terribly naughty mood today. Not anything slimy, but I'm just in the mood to disturb and make fun with my friends tonight - including my maid. I don't know why; I'm just having the rhythm to be little naughty devil and L.O.L with everybody at home.

My maid was one of my "victim". Since she can't speak fluent English, I was talking in an non-existence language with her and pretend that I'm speaking in English. When she says she cannot understand me, I made face in disbelief that she can't understand such simple instructions. As she tried harder to know what I'm saying, I said "Walak tagalog..." Then only she knew I was tricking her.

Other than my maid, I don't know who will be my next victim....Bobby maybe.

My 1st pair of B.O.O.T.S!

I've finally got myself a pair of knee length boots, for the first time in my life. I know I can't really wear it in too many occasion, but it just didn't stopped me from loving boots since I was a teenager. And what da heck, I only got the guts to buy it when I'm 27 years old!

So, mission accomplished! Yenny with her new pair of boots!

Here comes another Monday...

Time flies....in a super fast bullet train! When I typed the topic, it just felt like deja-vu that I wrote the same topic yesterday. Wonders why Mondays always comes earlier than Saturday @,@

There's really nothing very special happened in this whole week. It's no longer as busy as it was in November, and there are lesser bombastic conversation hushing around office lately. Some seniors who have their chance to get back home for Xmas are undeniably excited, while those that have to stay back at work (me!)....seems unaffected. Nobody really talk about Xmas here. Maybe there are big mass of multicultural people here, and everyone has their respective favorite holidays...

As for me, there really isn't a big surprise that I won't be back home for Xmas this year. I've known that newbies got to stay back as early as November, so I'm kinda 'immune' to it already. Rather then spend time whining why I can't go home, I might as well try to enjoy my first Xmas at Philippines. Heard there will be lots of parties and caroling when Xmas approaches..and hope I will see something new by then.

Whatever it is....just another week to Xmas. Which means, just another 2 weeks to the end of 2009!~~~

and I'll be another year older?!?!?

the Lazy-BUM

I've been so lazy and kept giving myself excuses from going to the gym lately. I don't know why. And every time when I've finally decided NOT to go working out, guiltiness overwhelmed me....so contradicting....

My heart says NO, but my conscience says YES

Arrggh.....!!!!!!!! I'm so afraid that I'll grow fatter & fatter if I ever skipped gym again, but but but....I'm just so tired lately. The restlessness had reached a level where it's an obstacle to even lift my both lazy legs for a mini walk....

What's happening to me....lazy bum-bum?

How did you sleep?

Good morning sweetheart, how did you sleep?
I didn't get one hour because you weren't next to me
I tossed and turned, tried to close my eyes
The bed was so cold without you by my side

Lately I been up thinking about you, not getting any rest
I tried holding my pillow, but it doesn't compare to your chest
I tried putting on music, but it doesn't compare to your heart beat
I needed your warmth, and your feet on my feet

Good morning baby, what did you dream?
Were you my hero, calming my fears and screams?
Were we on a beach holding hands, watching the sun go down
Making love, ruffling the sheets, exalting loud sounds?

Lately I been up thinking about you, dreaming of your lips
My heart pounds fast and occasionally the beat skips
I tried to dream longer and not interrupt the bliss
I didn't want to awake from the most beautiful kiss

Good morning sweetheart, how did you sleep?

~CHELSEA~

Here comes Monday...

The swollen right foot
The doctor says I should not be too worry about it - just regular bites. She gave me some kind of anti-inflammation cream to apply on. But I'm still worry sick! Even though it doesn't swell as much, but the bite mark still looks pretty bad. As I checked properly, that insane insect was aiming right at my vein when it bites. Wonder if it sucks any blood out of it. Yeah, talking about blood, the wound looks slightly blue-ish too. Guess it must be a big angry insect hiding in my stockings that night...
Well, will monitor it for few days, and if still looks ugly - will get the doctor to fix it again...!

Bad Monday blues for Supervisors
So, supervisors are indeed human too eh? He was in such bad mood today, that he purposely marked on our small mistakes during the job. We didn't really flared it so badly, but maybe he just need to throw some tantrums before let us leave. So, we let him of course. This is the undeniable organization hierarchy in every office - when your superior gets bad mood, you get the spanking!

Monday is leave me alone day!
Haha...sounds drastic. Well, what I really meant is I don't have to mood to go socializing today. Maybe I do have my Monday blues too (but I can't spank my supervisor). I just feel like having a good, peaceful, enjoyable night alone. Maybe one does not really need to be surrounded by friends all the time. There are pretty times when it's just as cozy to munch some tit-bits while surfing the net in the room. Not talking to others for awhile can help in resting my blabber mouth too. But who can stand loneliness for too long? Maybe just for tonight.

Went to 7-11 and got my favorite Apple Juice and some snacks. Came home had a steamy hot bath and headed straight to my routine face mask. And here am I now, updating my blog while munching my favorite Pringle's....! It's good to be alone some times...!

Swollen right foot

I've got a swollen right foot today...was feeling the itchiness but didn't know it got swollen

Think got bitten by some-kinda unknown insects living on my bed. Am so worried that it is somehow poisonous or harmful. By the way, if I don't die within 24 hours since the bite, then it should not be toxic, right? Applied some antiseptic cream and bandaged it with a big-big plaster....hopes it's getting better tomorrow.

If not, must rush to the doctor then!

Happiness; from a distance...

As I looked through the pages, I realized that I have too much resentment about coming to Makati City. I always says I miss home, or it's far too lonely here, or time passes by like a sloth's movement. A friend of mine posted something on my wall yesterday, telling me that if I have taken a step back, the world will look better.

True. I took a few step back tonight, and I was mesmerized by the way on how the world looks better. It does really looks better.

If I have not traveled so far, I wouldn't know how difficult it is to take good care of myself. If I have not decided to venture here all by myself, I wouldn't know how great a simple companionship would be to me. If I have not decided to leave home, I wouldn't know why Mom always reminds me that family ties is the most unbreakable bond that lives soundly inside us. If I hadn't come, I would have still taking things for granted, many things...

Ask me if I'm any regretful of my decision to work abroad - not really. This is an experience I would never get if I'm still any ordinary "office-lady" at KL; or if I worked any harder to get any positional level in whichever company I'm in.

I feel a sudden mass transformation in myself - my whole new living style with brand new thoughts.

Now I know what are the things I really hate to do, and what are the things that truly makes me a happier-relaxed-contented person. I know how to chill out when people or things are going my opposite ways and I know when to be cruel when I need to be. I know how to say sorry and never feel any sorry about anything. I know how to be wrong at times and still not feel guilty afterward. I know how to shrug off a bad comment in my mind but yet pretend as if I'm really taking his/her bad comments into deep consideration.

I finally know how to make good use of negativity and turn it into my own prospected optimism. Now, I can have a very bad day and yet enjoys its next moment. I'm not so plastic anymore. I acknowledges my right to be bad; but never forgets to indulge myself with more love, hopes and dreams....

My first massage @ Makati

Been feeling restless, tired and stiff lately. I go to bed early every day and wakes up at the same time every morning. Maybe I have skipped a few gym session as I was having heavy menstrual flow last week, but that should not be the case that I'm feeling so bad lately. My back hurts, and I'm having stiff muscles all around my shoulders and neck. I think I had enough....

Headed straight to KS's place after work today and dragged him out from home - demanding him to introduce a good massage parlor for me. It was so surprising that he willingly brought me to a reflexology massage parlor and introduced me to a few therapist that he got to know from his previous visits. And the female therapists there actually greets him as Sir Andrew.....LOL...!

(I like the name - Andrew!)

I've got a petite young lady as my therapist today. Her name is Grace. Even though she's got small body frame, but I have to put up a good applause to her massaging skills. Yeah, it hurts a little when she pressed hard on some of my problematic muscles, but I believe that it should be treated this way. If not, sooner or later the muscles will create strains and ache if I don't do anything about it.

Maybe the exercises that I do at the gym is not thorough enough, as I do not have any personal trainer to teach me proper stretching skills. Running on treadmills, walking on the steps machine and lifting dumb-bells aren't intensive enough.....It still feels good to have a full body reflexive massage once in awhile ;p

And with all the ooohss and ahhhss I've got from the massage just now, it only costs me 300Peso + 100Peso as tipping....so affordable (and cheap!)...

Gotta return to that lovely parlor for manicure, facial cleasing & massage, foot reflex and get real with some pampering stuffs!

and last but not least, thank you sir Andrew.....
hahahahhahahahaha!

Her "devilish-tail" is finally out!

Well, I'm talking about my maid here....as everyone of us knows, there are usually more cons than pro for having a maid at home actually. Just like any regular Indo-maids we have in Malaysia, they do pretend to be nice and obedient during the early stage, but later on when they finally know their master's way of living...their devilish tail will reveal...!

Same here with my Filipino maid, Joy. She seems to be okay at first, but now she became more lazy and demanding. Well, she doesn't clean the house as we have expected. My toilet is always wet, even after I asked her to clean it thoroughly. She doesn't report to work on time (her off day is from 5pm Saturday to 5pm Sunday) and she doesn't show up until Monday afternoon. Previously, she would still use some slimy excuses for not coming back on time like her son is sick or her husband needs her (sexually??!?) bla bla bla....but now she doesn't even care to give us anymore notice. She just doesn't come home on Sunday evening and pretend as if nothing happened on Monday!

Since Nis had joined in to our dorm, she is demanding for a raise just because she needs to serve another person extra! So we reasoned with her saying that there were originally 7 person staying in the house but Roslina had moved out with her boyfriend. So, Nis's headcount is not extra, she is just claiming the empty space we have. Last time when our maid need to serve only 6 of us was already a privilege to her! After that she changed her direction saying it's very tiring for her to do laundry for 7 person.....

What da F**K...!!!

I think she will soon becoming a history....

My new housemate

Hmm...nothing significant to pen down tonight, but maybe I'm just too used of blogging nowadays. I think I'm getting a nickname as blogger-queen from my colleagues soon - due to my extended interest to write and express myself in words. No wonder my mood always turn bad whenever I can't find the right word to say at times...

Well, a new gal join into my dorm since last Saturday. She's from Thailand, her name is Nis/Tina/Gwendolyn. Now don't query why she's got so many name cos I didn't give her any of those. That's how she introduced herself when I asked what is her name. So I told her in return, my name is Yenny/Foong Yen/Yen/Sor-poh/Sam-pat/Leng-lui. Haha...tung ngor wan yeh?!?!? nyek nyek nyek...

Well, she is a nice girl anyway. Even I do not know her very well, but she is practically nice at first sight. Hopes she will still be nice along the way.

She's working at the 19th Flr as Customer Service Officer. Her work is basically to chat everyday, using our company's Customer Support line. The system is almost 80% alike our MSN chat. Of course I envied her, who doesn't want to sit there the whole day and all you do is just "chatting"? There will be no emotional turbulence, because you won't hear the fussy & angry voice of the customer. You don't see the customer's face at all, so it cut the risk of facing an ugly customer. All you need to do is type "Please calm down, sir. We'll assist you shortly" and after that you don't give a damn if he commits suicide at the other line!...Heaven-made job for every front-liners, I assume?

Other than that, she is also a very good cook. Yes, you have guessed it. She makes very good TomYam-kung and the smell of it already make my slivers splurging like waterfall. I haven't tasted it yet, but the aroma hits me when I came home from work last Sunday. I can't imagine what would I do if I have tasted the food. Hire her as my chef, maybe?

She speaks more English compared to Mandarin, but it's ok for me as I'm comfy with both. She adds an additional opportunity for me to learn another foreign language here (to fulfill my Things-To-Do list). Yeah...next time I can curse in Tagalog, Thai and Bahasa Indonesia whenever I come across with any nasty people in my life....

Gawd, all I ever wanted to do is cursing??!?!?......bad influence....rated 18PL...

10 things I look forward to......

Well, the end of the year is drawing near, and gawd knows what I had done/accomplished in the last 300++ days of my life...People should be talking about the coming New Year's resolutions by now (if they are already bored crapping about Xmas gits anyway..) but it suddenly crossed my mind that - what are the things I would look forward to do before the year ends?...

Hmmpphh...Hmmmpphh

1. Boost up my training on the treadmill so I can get cellulite-free legs by next year (yes, I'm having that orangey-look on my thighs and I'm not ashamed to tell everyone here haha)

2. Buy a pair of knee-length boots (I still can't forget "that" boot I saw at Landmark) and a matching punky black dress

3. Be more dedicated and enjoy my work here so time files faster - also, I can be home even faster

4. Learn more Tagalog so I can use a foreign language to curse some selfish Malaysian when I'm back; and enjoy the feeling that they don't what know I'm cursing about

5. Improve my relationship with Bobby and enjoy the companionship here while we can

6. Take well-balanced meals daily - more fruits, veges and soups. Less instant noodles! Less rice! Less meat!

7. Capture more photos and send home to family & friends (I have always loved photography, but it just stopped with no better reasons...)

8. Indulge and pamper myself more with massages/spa/glorious food/fun outings

9. Save at least 60% of my salary here (gosh if only I can do this, I can be gawd damn rich man.....)n - gambateh!

10. Be happy, worry less, frown less - smile ^.^

Do you think I can...?

2012...

2012....The most heated conversation at Makati recently. You will look like an idiot if you can't join in any chats regarding this topic at the workplace. But being the always unique me (a-hem), I'd prefer to stay quiet and look like an idiot at the same time; rather than joining in such shallow tête-à-tête.

I couldn't bring myself to comment about the earthquake that separates that shopping mall, the volcano that bursts like an over-heated microwave, or the tsunami that killed President Obama. Those are not the main message of the story isn't it? Despite all the natural disasters that were practically over-reacted in the movie, I'd feel that the movie is just telling us not to think so much when the end-of-the-world-day really comes.

C'mon, do you really think you can drive a limo like that crazy guy when New York city is splitting like wrinkles on gransma's face? And do you think a dead old caravan can escape hot lava like batman's sports car? And please tell me how can I find a boob's plastic surgeon to maneuver a 747 out of chaos?

Please don't get me wrong. I'm definitely not taking 2012 for granted. I'd even made a red "x" at my calendar as reminder.

It is never too late to believe that one fine day (not necessarily in 2012), the world will get expired and all she (Mother Nature) need to do is throw a big-big tantrum at all lousy homosapiens; and renew the whole mass nature of earth.

Whether will there be any form of human life after that, who cares? It is not for us to decide. And the idea of e-Ark in the movie didn't amuse me too much. If there's really the Ark, then these same group of people are having another chance to destruct the world again later. I'd prefer a full-renewal process. Who knows, God decides to create a new Adam with boobs and chest hair...? and then create Eve with unlimited wisdom & happiness.. and less problems to be cared for.

Back again... at that point of time, I don't think I have anymore time to get the supernatural acts clicked in. All I'd hope for is the chance to accept the punishment sealed with a last kiss from my parents, and am able to ask for their forgiveness in all naughty things I've ever done. Well, in short - it will be good enough if I can die in the arms of loved ones, rather than dying out of no-where. That's not too much to ask for , right?

And after a blink of eye, I could be re-born into a sexy, curvy, charming female T-Rex and start running around the jungle like a moron. Then, I would look forward that the world is really coming to a fresh beginning again, even after a bad ending....

如果沒有你

Hey ～我真的好想你 現在窗外面又開始下著雨 眼睛幹幹的 有想哭的心情 不知道你現在到底在哪裡
Hey ～我真的好想你 太多的情緒 沒適當的表情 最想說的話 我該從何說起 你是否也像我一樣在想你

如果沒有你 沒有過去 我不會有傷心 但是有如果還是要愛你
如果沒有你 我在哪裡 又有什麼可惜 反正一切來不及 反正沒了自己

Hey ～我真的好想你 不知道你現在到底在哪裡

你是否像我一樣在想你…?

Insightful chat with KS

I had a very good chat with KS last night. We talked about so many subjects that I doubted if he ever initiated this kind of chat with his brother, ever.

I've known KS for as long as I knew his brother. Coming close to about 7 years, maybe. I've portrayed KS as a guy with very few words, very much back-laid to himself and doesn't demand much from others. Very opposite from his brother who is more a socialite, expressive, naughty and what can I say, attractive.

Had dinner with KS at Hap Chan Restaurant, Bugos Makati city. We started talking since we got a taxi, all the way through the peak traffic jammed; while we were eating and until he walked me home.

We talked about personality, family, expectations, $$, career, future plans, and on top of everything, we spoke about love.

I've always envied his girlfriend so much when KS planned for their Christmas holiday last two years. He brought his girlfriend to Hong Kong Disneyland on Christmas Day, living in Disneyland's Hotel Suite Room! All on his expenses. Well, maybe it's not really the monies that really counts (but that heck is really a lot of money!) but...don't any girl would dream to live in such fairy tale at least once in a lifetime? First class Xmas celebration at Disneyland with all those heart-throb childhood cartoon characters surrounding you....singing all those never-to-forget main theme songs from Cinderella, Aladdin, Beauty & the Beast....

and the sweetest thing about Ks is...he writes a diary (everyday!) since the first day he dated his girlfriend and kept all those happy, unforgettable first-kiss moment, first-fine-dining moment, first-sex-moment, first-fight, first make-over, first ahh...whatever...It just proved how important the relationship is to him..!

Such a loving guy, with such pampered girlfriend....they ended the relationship end of last year. Due to irreconcilable opinions and unattainable indifference in life.

KS told me, distance is really one of the main problem towards the breakdown of their bond. Deep inside my heart, a voice whispering to my inner sense:

The greatest problem I have now is also distance. I'm distantly away from my family and my friends. I'm distantly away from a location call Home. I have courageously faced all difficulties I have here physically and emotionally, but I have placed my heart at a far far place called --> distance.

And so, I told KS. I don't think he should be sad for too long (which he kept on denying that he is sad) because he had a very memorable love chapter with her after all. If all he could feel now is sadness, then he had wasted all those amazing memories together....I know nothing I've said would bring them together again, but at least he knows that it is not the end of everything ever. We do fall out of love at some time in our life, but eventually we will discover another splendid form of love again someday; and as we look back, it never felt so bad after all!

As for myself, I shouldn't feel so empty inside too. Since I've decided to leave home for awhile and absorbs a new adventure out here, I should let loose and blends all my emotions well. I should make everyday an interesting encounter, let it be happy or sad. So later on when I'm already getting enough of this, and decides to be Home again, I would profit from this lifetime experience which no money can buy after all. And as I look back, it will never feel so bad after all....!

what an apologetic day--and it's a double!

Apology-1:
It was such a busy & messy day at work. We were practically short-handed of four personnel today; and there was terribly many many online gamers getting in. I worked with a senior (whom I always think is the nicest person in ST Team 1) and we both were trying to cope with the volume. Around 4.25pm, the big-gamers were finally attacking in. Being the busy me, I took a quick glance at the tickets and I heard my senior mentioned about the application. Well, I just took it for granted since I know he's attending to it. So I converted my attention to some other games....

About half an hour later, I heard my supervisor shouting from his podium that we are at a loss to account CTA. Me and my senior, suddenly went blue; and then I think we got goose bumps together. Gosh, sounded like "that" ticket we saw just now. Of which, checking back on our previous records, we've lost 3 tickets at 0.91WL to CTA, approximation of RMB60,000....

Only then, we knew we have done 2 major mistake. 1)my senior did not run away from the avatar. 2)I was ignorant to double check after my senior attended to it.

Well, he admitted the fault, and I was partially pardoned because "I'm still new"...sigh....

Sorry, Eric Wong.

Apology-2:
The stupid heater in my room is not working today. Dumb maintenance-guys are not available at such wee hours (of course) and I had to use another bathroom. Due to this, I had waken up my housemate from her perfect slumber....Well, this is really nothing big, but I know that perfect sleep is crucial to everyone of us in this line. Coincidentally, she is on her off-day and I had to be so cruel to wake her up so I can use her bathroom...

sigh...Sorry, Joyce.

Self-pampering

My maid laughed at me today for roaming around the house with nothing much better to do, perfectly aimless. She said cheekily in her broken English, "Mam Yenny, you boling, nothing many-many things to do?" Well, practically she was just teasing me that I look boring and restless at home. Hmmphhh...how can I let my maid tease me, I must be heading somewhere or doing something in the next minute..!

Grabbed my wallet, rushed downstairs and my intuition lead me to the nearest pharmacy. Was looking for some good hair-spa oil so I can lay like a dead corpse on the bath tub and enjoy rejuvenating my hair for the rest of an hour. Isk Isk...can't spot anything good for hair..

A quick glimpse at the right corner of the shelf, I saw a small packet written "Face Sauna" and something scribbled on it as refreshing, cleanses..bla bla bla...

Garnier Synergie Pure Sauna Mask - a clay-like face mask with self-heating ability to cleanse pore and jazz up tired/dull skin. Wow, perfect for my shameless situation now!

~~~Before & After

Well, it does really feel good. Due to it's heating effect, my skin feels less "tight" after using it and some of those dull colored spots on my forehead actually vanishes. Garnier did not pay me a single penny for all these comments, but I never thought that it could do so much wonders on my skin. I only concentrated the clay on my forehead, nose & chin but it does leave some reflexology effect on my whole face, maybe thanks to its heating element.

I've always been using the Neutrogena Facial Mask and I thought that is the best I've ever tried. But this Garnier is equally amazing!

And thus, hope that I'll be enjoying a good-good slumber ahead tonight! Good night!

11.11.09

Today is 11th November 2009....denotes 11.11. Let's see what perspective I have on this date...

I was busy adjusting gaming odds today when I suddenly told my team mate that we have a very special date today. 11.11 - double 11.

At first, it feels like a sweet and memorable date. Just like any hot wedding dates which sounds like 19.09.99 or 20.09.2009 and etc etc, I think 11.11 can also be very meaningful. It looks like a double-up happiness day for couples by having both number 1 together, on a repeated basis.

And such, I began to imagine could there be anything special happening to me after work. Things like, a handsome guy come up to me and ask me for a date, or a special pre-arranged outing with friends, or even maybe, I mean just maybe, I'll meet with that cute Eurasian bloke that lives at 11th Floor somewhere at the lobby and he says hi to me!

Well, well...all the above ---- did not happen.

I'm all alone watching movies at home, chatting with some other hopeless chap like me, and blogging for the sake of my follower's interest. And so, at about this time when 11.11.09 is going to pass by just like that, I have another different perspective on the date. The number 1 means alone for singles, and therefore a lonely me today.....

Buckle up, sleep early la, day dreamer....

not everyone has second chance....

Heard from Bobby today that his not-so-close friend's girlfriend is dead after plunging from the 18th floor of his living-in condominium. The suicidal girl is only 22 years old. Bobby showed me her FB link and there are many News Feed wishing her "R.I.P" and "We miss you" and so on and so forth...

Well, I don't know the guy and the deceased personally, but I can still feel a pinch of awkwardness towards this whole scenario. The guy is as old as Bobby - 27 years and the girl, just merely 22 years old. What on earth that there's nothing better to do than dying?

As Bobby's usual self, he would ask me some weird questions after telling me some weird news. He asked me " You wouldn't jump off buildings like her, won't you?" Of which, I answered him so directly without any second thoughts "I would, only if Dad & Mom dies first."

Then he burst a big laugh and said "Daddy Mommy is already 50 something! but you are not even 30 yet...! means if Daddy Mommy is no longer around then you will jump off the building is it..?"

hmmpphh...I just laser-eye him and make him know I would very much like to change another subject if he still want to talk with me. He thought it was funny and still giggles before he walks away...idiot... o.o!

My point here is really not so much about who dies first...but does suicide really ends all matter at once? I'm always questioning myself why there's so little time for me to accomplish something. Or sometimes when I looked back to my younger years, it does give me a big-big sigh whether why had I not do this or that...and as time passes away, there will be no more turning back.

And as I'm approaching my 30's soon, I just want time to move slower than it should be. So that I will have more time to love myself, and love those people around me. I also need more time prove to myself that I have at least the slightest contribution towards the community and the environment. I need more time to let Mom know that she didn't give birth to a "sausage" after all....(well, of course Mom never really call me a sausage, but that "sausage" phrase suddenly crossed my mind - that's it)

But she chose to fast forward the time and end it there at once...with no doubt and queries....she just jumped off like that....

Well, to that young girl ~ Ms. Kok - may you rest in peace, if that is your choice of life.

There's so much more in life unknown; do not just rush forward, but don't stay behind for too long ~ time never wait, you are the creator of your own masterpiece...

MC-Day!

Finally decided that I shouldn't give a damn of how much workload I have today, and text my boss in the morning that I've declared today as MC-Day...!!!

Went to see doctor, confirmed it's throat inflammation which caused the fever. Gulped down a package of medicine which includes antibiotics, paracetamol, vitamin C and lozenges....had a good sleep of around 4 hours. Feeling much better now...

~~~

Called Dad & Mom last night and heard that they really misses me a lot. Considering Bro is getting married by end of this year and he certainly will move out to his new home by then, I really need to shorten my working plan here. Maybe I should be back home by next June/July so that I can keep Dad & Mom accompany while Bro has moved out. It is really sickening for me to even have the slightest thought that both my aging parents are left at home alone.

While I'm still here struggling, its good to know I'll be back home very soon...

Sicko me!

Hmm...I'm feeling feverish again today. Doctor says I have a sore throat coming up and gave me some Vitamin C and fever medicine. I think it's sleep deprivation ( I'm always using this word lately - sleep deprivation). I'm already drinking more water each day and refuse to eat anything heat-y. But waking up this morning, I saw a bright pink pimple on my left cheek and I know something is going wrong with my body. I don't usually get any pimples unless it's the time of the month. But now, I'm already feeling that my body temperature raising and clear signs on my face is showing me warnings~~I'm getting s.i.c.k.

My mood at work is plunging downwards recently. I don't know why I'm so unhappy at times and feeling unfair, dissatisfied and clueless about the whole metaphor at my workplace. Even though some of the hardship in taking this challenge are truly pre-determined before I decide to come, but there are seemingly so many other elements that is unknown and unwelcoming to me now. Too many loopholes in my work that I've unearthed in such short term and I'm beginning to doubt if the grass could really be greener on the other side.

There are signs that I might be able to be transferred to another department soon. Of course I'm looking forward to a change, but whether it is a positive sign or otherwise, nobody can tell. However, I still hopes it is a good change for me to be able to explore further and be doing something else rather than this pile of shit I'm into now.

If things really doesn't work out, Malaysia is better be ready to accept an additional number of jobless-chap in the country soon.

My sleep-less off-day!

I was talking about sleep deprivation for the whole week already, and now here I am; getting out of bed at 9a.m. on my off-day. In fact I was not in my sleeping mode around 7-ish but I just remained in bed, hope that I will eventually transform into Detective PIG again. But it didn't help at all, and no choice, I'd better find some activities to do instead of wasting my time in bed.

Luckily my network got connected, and I'm going out to Chinatown today with Jacelyn, Soon, Bobby and don't-know-who-else. Just go there walk-walk and find some genuine Chinese food to eat la, instead of eating Chinese fast-foods around Makati City...not so yummy at all actually.

I miss Hokkien Mee at KL. and steamed chicken rice at Connaught. and KFC (yes, KFC here taste totally different). and so many other food I can't possibly name it now.

I'm hungry already....Chinatown better offer me some tasty food....or else....

Sigh~~~!

The days moved so slow lately. I don't know why I've lost interest in work all of a sudden. I dragged myself to work, and it was so difficult to lift my foot to walk another step....Maybe I've finally burned-out of "fuel" as this is a very busy month indeed. I do not have the stamina to plan where to go during my off-days because all that I wanted to do is sleep sleep sleep. Get more & more sleep but I'm still sleep deprived. Tired. Lethargic.

This is really the main difference of working far away from home. Compared to my life when I was still at MAA, no matter how busy or tired, I would still find some activities to do during the weekend rather than sleeping the day away. Or even if I wanted to be couch-worm so much, Dad or Mom or Joyce would drag me out to at least do something with them - shopping, buy groceries, watch movies, bla bla bla. But here, I'm basically living a life of my own and I don't need to follow anyone's trend at all. Even friends / housemates here are not so "demanding" if I told them I'm being lazy at home. Nobody really cares if I want to stay home, or go out.

I'm feverish for 2 days already. Went to the clinic a few times to measure my body temperature, it appeared to be normal. Blood pressure normal. But I'm really feeling warm inside. It could be due to lack of sleep, or maybe I'm just being the ol' me again ~ sick-pot. Of course I need to take good care of myself here. No point earning more but losing health. I'm already drinking more water everyday, and watch my diet. Just missed going to the gym lately because I'm really really tired....arrggh...

Bobby made soup for me yesterday, but I didn't drink it. He made bittergourd with button mushroom soup....looks yummy. But I was having my menses that time and Mom had always warned me not to take any food that's too "cooling" for the body. So, I had to say no. I wonder if he feels rejected, but what to do. He didn't know when's my menses coming tho....

I've got a new "buddy" on my bed sleeping through the nite with me now! It's Eeyore! Will get a picture of my new room-mate and download it soon >.<

LEO ~~ bite buttocks "!"

Updated 30 October 2009 at home....

Super Dad's birthday 2009

Daddy's birthday bash at dunno-which-restaurant at The Mines Shopping Complex. Heard that the food is very nice. But whatever, I'm glad that he enjoyed the lunch. And it is most joyful to know he has a big bunch of lunatic Ho's who loves him just as much as I do....

In the picture: Carol (my future sis-in-law), Gary (Bro), Wayne (the naughty brat), Joyce (Aunt), JJ (my little Bro), Super Mom, Super Dad, Wilson (Uncle)

I moved like a sloth....! tired~

It is getting more & more busier each day. The peak season of online gaming is already coming in and people from all divisions are working ourselves out. I know this will continue at least towards end of November, and gosh I hope to be back home by end of December. Dumb HR just materialized a new rule that only 5 days of unused Annual Leaves can be brought forward every year. Damn. Of course this is affecting me. Many seniors are rushing to clear their AL by end of this year because they have accumulated many days of AL before this stupid HR ruling. Which means, due to lack of manpower, I may have to stay back in December. Damn Damn Damn....I hope I can be back. Newbies are always less fortunate...unfair!!!!

I had so many leagues to be taken of today until I forgot my dinner. Or lunch. I don't know which meal I've skipped anyway. But it was so sweet of Bobby today. He bought a piece of banana cake (my favorite!) and bring it over to my division today. He never do this kinda things for so long already. I'm not sure if he didn't have the opportunity to do so, or he was just plain ignorant last time. I think the latter describes him better. But whatever the past is like, he really did brighten my day with a simple gesture. Maybe these are the "petty" things I've always needed from him all the years. I don't really need a hippy life, or a big car, or a lavish candlelit dinner. Just something spontaneous and thoughtful. I wonder he got the message or not, but I really wish he's improving.

I'm so looking forward to next Monday. Dad & Mom are back from their China trip, and Mom bought me a knee-length white qibao a.k.a cheongsam (cannot really call it cheongsam cos its knee-lenght ;p). According to her, it is trendy & sexy type (sexy?!!?! I doubt it) Well, Dad will send me their pictures taken during the trip and also some other updated photos of all @ home...including my darling LEO. Ohhh...I miss this naughty brat. Dad says Leo is getting fatter and his coat of fur is more shiny compared to last time. Mom says he's got bigger buttocks now...hehehe...

It's raining so heavily now at Makati. Cold & lonely could be words to describe my situation now. But after reading Sis's blog, I don't feel so bad after all. Despite all the hardship and struggle here, I know someone precious is always thinking of me irregardless of any weather. Their support and blessings are true love with no boundaries!

Simple...? yet special

Phew....it didn't turn out as bad as I had expected.....

Dearest Sis a.k.a my sweety angel:

yeah, you are right. Who don't really spill things up at work..? Maybe I was just being emotional. But feeling regretful after a bad day's at work would at least reminds me to be more careful next time. Or I can just tell myself that people can really have the right to be wrong at some situations.

It's great to feel your concern even we are so many miles away with each other. About your considerations about me not pouring out enough; I reckon it's just part of me that's been hidden in the wardrobe for quite some time. You know, shy little creature feeling awkward to "expose" herself at times...?

~~~~

If God would ask me what are the things I've accomplish in this life, I would answer Him that I've accomplished LOVE in my life.

A love which not only blessed by my family members, but also love from a total stranger in my life. A stranger which I accidentally and unexpectedly made friends with, and then it developed into something called sisterhood. I have a brother which I could never be as close to my sister. A sister which would know things about me more than my brother would know.

A sister named after Sherine Chin Oi Lian.

But if God says this is not sisterhood at all, then I would just tell Him that I don't really need any definition for it. I just feel it in my heart.

I feel so blank today. Maybe "blank" is too subtle to describe my feelings now ~ empty should be a better word.

I did something so wrong at work today. However, the error only emerged towards the end of my shift so it was too late to realize it and make things right. The impact was so huge that I nearly ran out of breath. I don't know why....

I was just like a little school girl who failed her spelling test and was afraid the teacher would punish me and hit my hand with a ruler....kiddy me :(

arrgghh.....
shall know it by tomorrow....

my Day & Night @ Makati City

It's almost (I mean really almost) half a year here in Makati City. I wonder if I have stayed back at KL, what would I be doing right now.....

Had a sweaty and satisfying gym work-out all-alone just now. A thought just strikes me that I've never taken any pictures of Makati City from a bird's view angle after so long. So I searched through my gym bag and shockingly surprised enough; I have my camera in my gym bag ( I don't know what's the camera doing in my gym bag,really =." )

So here goes.....:

Am I a commitment freak..?

You have the tendency to be a bit of a flake, and any binding agreements make you slightly nervous.

You might be a bit skittish about making commitments in your life, but it hasn't developed into a full-fledged phobia - yet. You're a hard worker and have no problem dedicating yourself to something you really believe in - but it does take awhile to secure your faith in a project. So you already take some parts of your life rather seriously. However, making commitments usually means letting other people be in the driver's seat sometimes, and that sometimes rubs you the wrong way. But you don't have to let it! You value freedom and spontaneity, qualities that don't always mesh well with a huge load of responsibility, but in an ideal commitment, you're still free to be you. Naturally you should exercise caution if you're with someone who tries to control your life or keeps you forever on the straight-and-narrow. But the right person for you will respect your individuality and your life. If the right opportunity arises, just say yes, but if you're feeling smothered, just back out. No one will think less of you for it.

Buddha says...

The way is not in the sky. The way is in the heart.

- Buddha

All about L.O.V.E...(part2)

Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable.

- Brothers, Dr. Joyce

The strenght of "hope"

Hope is a state of mind, not of the world. Hope, in this deep and powerful sense, is not the same as joy that things are going well, or willingness to invest in enterprises that are obviously heading for success, but rather an ability to work for something because it is good.
- Havel, Vaclav

Hope is both the earliest and the most indispensable virtue inherent in the state of being alive. If life is to be sustained hope must remain, even where confidence is wounded, trust impaired.
- Erikson, Erik H.

Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out.
- Havel, Vaclav

Hope is the last thing that dies in man; and though it be exceedingly deceitful, yet it is of this good use to us, that while we are traveling through life it conducts us in an easier and more pleasant way to our journey's end.
- La Rochefoucauld, Francois De

Random...~~

1. Dad and Mom are in Shanghai (& a few other parts of china I don't know where) by now...I hope they are enjoying a safe & amazing trip this time. It's in conjunction with Dad's birthday & their 33rd year wedding anniversary. Well, they always liked China but I think it's a boring place. So "scenery" with no excitement. But what else can two old-bags be doing except strolling by the river banks...walk across mountains...*yawn yawn* So Ms. Smart (me!) had planned a family trip to Hong Kong Disneyland for next year! yeah yeah...Mickey Mouse...Donald Duck...I'm coming!!! Hopes Bro & Carol can tag along too...pre-wedding honeymoon, maybe..?

2. Got hold of Kok Sheng (Caspo) after work today. Was chatting around regarding my work here, and he asked if I'm blending well with life. Well, of course things are getting much better now compared to my first month here, but I'd still miss home! hehe..I'm telling everyone at Caspo that I'm missing home, guess to much of broadcasting eh..Then he did mentioned that I might be given an opportunity to try out the Training & Development Dept too, but not too soon. Gosh, my heart was pounding! I didn't know I can do that job here. I mean trying is already a very big step for me. If I'm given the chance, God knows how much happier I would be....erm...dear Santa, you heard my Xmas wish already?

3. My relationship with Bobby here has improved so much ...after traveling so many miles away from home. I didn't notice until my colleague teased me about it today. She said my face sparkles whenever he's in the subject of the conversation. Well, he's really a great great companion for me here. He took good care of me when I had my first gastric attack here all alone, and it was so warm that he had waited for me to finish work so we can catch up dinner together. Even though our working shift is totally different and I don't get to see him often, but I appreciate that he takes up the courage & initiative to get together on his off-day. Well, "dated" him for a beer session this Wednesday nite, and I hope it goes well.....gee....got a tingling feeling like our first date outing ;P hope there will be pictures taken that nite so I can post it up!

4.I'm quite independent at work today...which means, my senior had "released" his watchful eyes on me and gave me more freedom to perform. Even it was a little messy, I am fairly satisfied with my full performance. At least I was enjoying it. Another step forward to the Online gaming industry. Good news.

5. I've found Care Bears here in Makati City! I remembered fondly that I used to have a Rainbow Care Bear when I was very small...about 5 years old perhaps. That cartoon was still a hit during my pre-school time and I loved it so much. Each Care Bears have their own power and it is shown on the chest ( or is it on their tummy?). Whenever Care Bears saves the day, they would all shines their respective powers through their chest (or tummy?). Then it would be all-well ends-well again....I was so silly that I nearly bought a Care Bear soft toy over at e-Bay because I can't find it anymore anywhere at Kl Toys"R"Us or other leading toy shop. But the price is usually hiked up if we buy via online so I gave up. Now here in Makati, I saw small Care Bears toys at the Amusement Arena, and I'm damn sure they are selling like hot cakes here. I'm gonna get myself a Rainbow Care Bear soon! No doubt!

great Quote!

"懂的唱情歌的人, 不表示他知道如何去愛
我們想唱情歌, 因為我們不可能把愛說出口"

Daddy's Birthday 2009

It's Daddy's birthday tomorrow...All I could do was to send him a birthday greeting card, and pen down my most sincere wishes to him....The rest, I leave it to Bro, heard that he's bringing Dad & Mom out for dinner tomorrow night. Hopes that Carol would tag along too...!

No pictures to be downloaded for this year's birthday. I could celebrate Mom's birthday with her, but not Dad's. Nevertheless, may the dinner tomorrow be as warm as it can be, and may their happiness be spared to Makati City, The Philippines. I may miss it this year, but I can surely feel the celebration's going on!

As for me here, Guardian Angels please grant my prayers for many many many more happy, healthy & joyous birthdays for Daddy to have....!

I've always think that God is always there for me to balance up my life. He would not grant me with too much happiness, til I forget the bittersweet feeling of hardship. Nor He would just stay at bay whenever I'm trouble; because no matter how difficult things may seem, there is certainly a helping hand coming along my way....

I do not know if this is the feeling of spiritual beliefs, but as I grow older I tend to understand that there are millions of things on earth left unanswered; not due to lack of intellectual skills of the human race. Maybe there is always a mythological power that keeps us looking forward to Life, and enjoy every magical moments which formed us into a human.

Ironic~

I just said that it was a difficult day yesterday...and poof**! I'm home early today. Yeah, kind Boss "release" us 3 hours ahead from our off-work time. Maybe he is in an incredible good mood today, or he's just thinking what the hell is a bunch of zombie-like dark eye circles roaming around....

Better ward-off these sleep-deprived crazy workaholics before they start sucking blood in the company~~ ha-ha!

I'm home! gotta get a good rest today.....

It's a tough Saturday!

Phew....!
It has been a difficult day at work today...There were so many obstacle that came my way, and I had to sort out & categorize the problems before a new one sets in. Who ever told me that a busy day would seems shorter...?

Tickets coming in!!Odds moving out!!Deadline towards my major leagues!!Stock trading!!Time's running out!!New games dashing entry!!Prices adjusted!!Big gamers here!!Run avatar....!!!!

huhhhh.....what a DAY....

a letter from Daddy....

Dear Yen,

You're a good girl.

I have already made up my mind , have to talk to my boss later this month or early next month. Dont forget I have to give him good advance notice. I reckon I can get out end Dec or sometime Jan/Feb.

Its no longer healthy for me to continue when I am no longer working as happy as I used to be. Somehow or rather, I have a gut feeling that opportunity shall come my way , without AE.

The bag have been working in this line since 1971, can you imagine. I am tired, sometimes very tired, though the money is good, but how much is enough or not enough. I decided health & mum come first, she has been alone at home for so many long years for example.

The only thing I want from you is not to worry about me, I'll be fine, really and you don't have to cut short your working years in Manila if you are happy there.

Love,
bag

Typhoon Pepeng 2009

There are news that the typhoon will hit The Philippines again tomorrow or Sunday (local date 3rd / 4th October 2009)...and they even got it a name - Typhoon Pepeng. The previous one that hit Manila was called Typhoon Ondoy. It still irks me why would human give names to typhoons, as if there are so many typhoons to be expected and "they" need an identity....

Of course I'm worried. Everybody is worried it seems. My company had also issued a concern warning to all staffs to be alert and pack enough emergencies kit, just to be on the safe side. Asking around some seniors, they told me it's a norm to get strong winds or typhoons here in Philippines, but this Typhoon Pepeng is also scaring them out a bit. The winds are expected to move in & attack at 210km/h, which is almost equivalent to a racing car's speed. But huge, massive winds we are talking about here; not a single McLaren.

I've just called home and told Dad about it, and re-assured him that I've got the emergency kit ready by my side. The main reason is hoping to calm him and not worry about me too much. To my surprised, Dad sounded more composed than me. He told me that it is now happening everywhere, and there's nothing much better that we can do except taking good care and be attentive. Exactly what I have in mind, too. To take good care and pledge to keep myself from harm. Other, let's put it on God's hands.

Dad says this is a natural disaster and it's not our will to run away from it. I say it is an approaching warning from Mother Nature reminding her children not to piss her off anymore......

Let's all really pray that no innocent lives be taken away this time...

Flood @ Manila....Sept 2009

Everyone's concern is directed to the flood at Manila recently. Well, being the lazy me to read the newspaper everyday, I was certainly surprised if the flood was really that bad....

Well, there was a minor flood on last Saturday, 26th September at Makati City. It was just like any regular flood we see in KL whenever the thunderstorms and flash flood happens. So, I thought it was just another "bad" day that day. I was soaked up that day because I had to cross the streets to get to my office. Well, the water is about ankle level, but the factor which was making me wet all over is not the water level. In fact, it was the strong winds that pushes the water streams and splashes all over me.

Received a call from Dad eager to know if I am all well here. And apart from Daddy, a few friends called too, care to know if I was fine. That's when the alarm strikes me and I searched through some news......

The urban areas with poor infrastructures were badly affected. Very badly actually. The water lever rose to waist level and many are made homeless as the rain washed away some wooden house's rooftops too. It was heart wrenching to see the photos actually. Only then I knew why so many people were concerned about me...

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Went out shopping to buy some household groceries with my maid today, at SM Supermarket. There were so many people going out shopping too...but they are all full loaded with instant noodles, rice, biscuits, all types of necessities to be kept in case of emergencies. Gawd, is there a war coming or what..?!!?!?

My nosy maid found out that those people are buying the food supplies to be sent to the flood stricken areas...small children and old citizen are starving but still stuck at their own area with no electricity and clean water.....

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Hmmm.....life's hard yea...just pray hard that all are safe and may God bestow us another chance to love the environment again...hoping Mother Nature will not be angry with us anymore....

Save the Earth, not for ourselves, but for our Children....!

Mulan...by Disney 1998

I've watched Disney's old cartoon series today -- MULAN.

Well, I've always loved its main theme song ~ Reflection (by Christina Aguilera) and after browsing through a few different channels from the web, I've finally got the full download of this movie. It was an enjoyable cartoon indeed. I remembered Joyce always brought me to the cinema whenever there's any highlights from Disney cartoons. She was still working as a nurse at Lee Yan Kean Surgery at that time; and I was sure she wasn't earning much. But however, she would still hold my hands and bring me to the clinic in the morning, while I waited patiently for her work to finish at 1pm. I also remember that she would buy me roti canai for brunch, taken with white sugar ( I loved it when I was young...!)...as she finishes her work, we would walk over to the cinema at Petaling Street, hands-in-hands...




That was how I knew Disney cartoons. Since then, as I grow older, I've never watched any Disney cartoons with her. But we both remembered very fondly, how we both use to be Disney's fans and I'm so sure that she makes a great role in my life ~ my one and only Aunt.

Well, there are a few tag lines that I would like to quote from the Mulan. I hope these can be inspiring words to someone at the right time...

Mulan's father cited to Mulan when she was sad:

My…my…what beautiful blossoms we have this year…! Look, this one’s late…but I’ll bet when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all….

The Excellency's remark on Mulan: The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all...

So, does it sounds good...?