Gary & Carol ROM

Finally, Carol is Mrs. Ho today. And of course, automatically she is my Sis-In-Law too. Funnily, she requested me not to bully her from today onwards. I told her "You'd better be giving me cute nephew / niece very soon. Or else, I will bug you non-stop"



Most of the key persons attended to their Rom at Putrajaya this very early morning. Dad said they got to be there by 8AM. Surely, everyone reached on time, and had a very good morning throughout.

Dad said all will be perfect if I was there too....

No fret, I will be HOME during their Chinese tradition wedding ... and I guarantee everyone some very very very delightful & heart-warming events.

am I accomodating .... or suppressing?

Since I moved to Stellent's; I've got more time and freedom to chat with my family and friends during working hours. This new job designation doesn't carry too much of P&C all the time and therefore we are permissible to "snake" at our own risk.

Due to that, Daddy have been msn-ing with me quite frequently. This may sound like good news, but there is always another side of anything.

Daddy had been sharing lots of happenings at home with me, which sometimes makes me feel happy and yet; worrying at times. Of course, knowing Superdad&mom lives healthily and happily is a very good blessing...but knowing some of those bad news can really pull away my energy at work too.

Daddy says, very soon...home will be different. Brother is moving on to another stage of life, and Leo may be following too. Our once small family, though seems growing bigger (by having Carol)...may signals that it is getting quieter too. And Dad does want me home.

Daddy says he misses his little san maw very much, and so does mom. Mom is always thinking if I am having good meals at work; and sometimes would ask dad if he knows what dinner I was having. Mom knows it has been some time that I haven't taste her home cooked food, and miss those days when I would be home and ask "what's for dinner tonight, apart from rice again!?!?"

Superdad&mom knows very well that I will be home soon. But maybe they couldn't get a clue why must I be home later, and not sooner.

Me? I don't know too. I'm also not sure if I am accommodating to certain needs here in Makati; or just simply suppressing my eagerness to be home again...

Cognition:;impaired

I couldn't believe that I survived yesterday. Yea, I could sound a little absurd, but it was a roller coaster day.

It was a long stretched 7AM - 10PM day at work - non-stop. By 8PM, I could no longer feel my toes. I mean, it was constant feel of floating in the air. My vision's blurred. It was difficult to see, let alone focus on that damn monitor. My thinking ability was lost. I was a walking homosapiens with no cognitive skill. I skipped dinner, too. But it was good news that I had a very full and rich breakfast to start my day. Tiredness made me lost appetite.

I think it took me less than an hour to go K.O once I reached home. And I slept the whole night through until today....

yes....yesterday was so...kantoi!

roof top, Easton Place

As I finished dinner with Vivian, time was still too early to get our bums back to office. So I suggested that we both can hang out at Easton's roof top. Well, get a good grasp of fresh air, or just simply procrastinate whatever hell we were doing in office today.

It's been almost 6 months since I stepped on Easton's 37th Floor. It used to be a solemn place for me to think, talk and cry.

I told Vivian; I used to sit up there all alone. I used to enjoy the strong breeze there and think about so many things about myself. I would think what are the things that I could possibly done if I'm still in Malaysia. I would think if I could fall in love with Makati. I would think if there will be one fine day when I'm back home for good, and how would I contemplate that later. I would think what sort of stage have my life gone through...and should I be singing praises to it?

And then I would do all the talking. To myself. I would say stuffs like, Buddha I want you to keep an eye (or both) on my parents. Bless them with happiness and pinky health while I am away. And I would also say; what are the silliest things I have done in my life, and ask myself if I ever regretted any of it. And I would also sometimes count on how many decisions I have made in life that made me proud. And what are those wrong turns I have taken that made me a little lesser than a full person I should be today...

And then the crying comes. I don't necessarily cry for guiltiness. Sometimes there are tears of joy, and sometimes, just out of some weird loneliness. Sometimes I'd be crying for nothing too, just to relieve some of those bad aura I absorbed throughout the day. I cry, because I am.

And just when I was wrapping up my stories, I saw a plane took off from NAIA. Yea, I can see lots of planes taking off and landing in far away from Easton. That's why I used to be here all the time. So that, by looking at those planes...I can count on days for me to be home draws nearer....and nearer....

Sept better be coming fast !

Things that I'm thinking of doing ... I'm thinking so badly ...

1. I want to see my SuperDad and SuperMom in real person. No more skype. No more international calls. No more sms.

2. I want to be really part of the family and help around for Bro's wedding preparations. I want to be so busy and happy doing it, and enjoy the day when I can meet with so many 2-ma-ku-jeh 3-ku-6-poh whom I haven't met in ages.

3. I want to see Carol in her wedding gown, and then in Mom's red chinese traditional wedding kua. I've dreamed of wearing it, but fate decides Carol's first. No problem, I'm equally thrilled.

4. I want to really sit down and chat my heart out with Sherine Chin Oi Lian. I bloody miss her. In fact, I missed out so many things about her. Her bridal gowns selection, then the ROM, then the photo shooting. We should really get our ass stuck on the couch .. and talk.

5. I want to eat all sorts desserts that I loved. And then only followed by other indulging food which my stomach growls only by thinking about it.

I just want to be home so much actually. It doesn't really matter if I can't do all the things I'd wanted to do...but I'd better be home soon. I'm getting out of my mind if this continues...

Guardian Angel, bring me home, safely. They want the full package of me !