Bye 2012, truly

Yeaaa so it is about an hour to greet a new year. And bye 2012, truly.

No no to crazy countdown this year. Not even years before this. Too young (ahemmm) to go 10 9 8 ..... 2 1. This is unbelievable!

At a cozy place, with mojito and baby school friends. Got a guy doing microbiology majoring immunology sitting right in front of me now. I just spent my precious 2 minutes listening to lotsa craps on protein structures fragmenting some damn DNA for the ultimate vaccination research. Urrgghhh... Noob. *blek

There goes last day of 2012. With happiness comes serenity.

Happy 2013. Live Life Love. Lots of metta.

when I sleep tonight..

When I sleep tonight, let there be pouring rains cleansing dirts of doubt.

When I sleep tonight, let there be singing nightingale humming songs of wayfarer.

When I sleep tonight, let there be ray of lights shining way through those darkest moments.

When I sleep tonight, let there be dreams catchers reliving fairytales in reality.

When I sleep tonight, let there be moths of warmth caressing every coldness within.


When I reach, be sure that I'm there.
When I wake up, be sure that I'm back.

Bye 2012 @ Thai

Destination - Koh Phangan
25 12 2012

40 mins of speed boat ride, rough with rather big waves. It is the well known (and well sought after) Full Moon Party along the coast line. Felt like we are at some euro country because the whole damn beach was swamped with kwai-lo s and kwai-mui s. *slurppsss

Highlight - mushroom juice. That got my stomach turned ( and head too) *winky

Just any regular big party lots of booze and lots of people. KO-ed and left the island by 1am. *phewww that was tiring

Back to Samui and hanging at Chaweng for some more Thai yummylicious, hopefully good massage too!

Bye 2012 @ Thai

Destination - Koh Samui
24 12 2012

How did we get there? Mini bus! :) Seriously it was an enjoyable 6 hours ride. The mini bus passed many different villages of different cultures. I think I saw animism in Buddha's kingdom. Awesome. And met with a Colombian guy (geek) named Samir (what, I thought Samuel). Ya very geek. But not too geeky yet cos he dared to travel solo SEA. But yes, he looked geek-ed. I say so cos this is my blog (me bad). *chuckles

Checked in Samui Cliff View Resort. As the name goes, our room is seated at the cliff, over looking Samui open sea. A swimming pool to add the feel. And jacuzzi also with sea view, but we didn't use yet. Hmmm yenny don't like that soaking feeling. Skin moisture gone la. *yawn yenny is boring :P

Dinner time was such pleasure for my taste buds. We landed at an authentic local resto where even the locals throngs in nonstop. We had papaya salad(super chilli spicy! Didn't carry on cos we couldn't feel our lips later), green curry beef, tomyam kung, kangkong (no no spicy thank gawd), pineapple fried rice - yenny's all time favorite !!! Minus the papaya salad, please.

Xmas gift - SHE Blossomy. Loved it to the max. A thoughtful gift is heavenly. And when SHE album is concerned, it's nirvana ! *obsessive

Also.. a xmas gift mistaken for a proposal. Or was that a proposal mistaken for a xmas gift? Figured it out, it didn't matter. Leo said yes, in cloud form. Me? Still figuring out if merry me and marry me, rhymes?

Bye 2012 @ Thai

22.23 12 2012
Destination - Hatyai
13hours of sleep-wake-sleep train ride. Surprisingly, I wasn't lethargic, just a little blur. Reach Hatyai and checked in New Season with no hassle. Highlight- I had my favorite McD Samurai Pork burger and yummylicious Pineapple Pie. Loving it! Then a little of walkaround and it started to drizzle. We stumbled across thai coconut drink tasted like milk and can't forget the crystal jade guava! and now, here we landed our feet for goodie thai massage. So look forward tonight !

Rainy Hatyai night.. All sleep and no play. But better things sizzling up tomorrow!

Opportunities are hidden blessings !

I am at a pub where talented people sing for a living. When we talk about earning monies, I doubt if there are heavy burdens just like any regular work we (or I) would have. But I saw passion. Very heartfelt passion, as if there is only enjoyment in every notes of music there is.

I wanted to learn an instrument for Dad's birthday bash. Til now it remained as a thinking, just at the back of my head. No realization yet. I wondered why....

So much love is not sufficient? When you love to do something, passion follows.

Just like them now. I'm sure they love their job. Passionately involved.

It is time to act, enough with thinking yen!

Research, understand and act upon. I wish I'd still remember this the moment I say Good Morning to myself tomorrow.

I can write so I'm happy. I can fulfill so I'm blessed. Thank you, opportunities.

got it .. !

ya. Because when you smile without a reason, that means there's something wrong... In your head especially =P

别人笑我太疯癫，我笑别人看不穿

yerrrr .. old skool !

ordinary people, extraordinary tale

I have always considered myself boring. Or less intrigued. Drop dead ordinary. Referring to a few conversations with someone that I would want to share my life with; I find my stories do make full-stop punctuation a lil too early. Like this article. I can’t possibly write a lot of other things. Things evolving me are only “this this and that that, and something like that” – mom’s language, need high tantric people to decode. *chuckles

But yea... I’d love to listen more than anything else. Or at times when I am done with listening, I’d observe. Or I can be doing both things concurrently, if the subject is really an interesting person that worth (both) my senses. And after all digestion of sensory enjoyment, all I could do is penning it down. Maybe this is not MY blog. This is YOUR blog. So much of my thoughts, expressions and experiences come from external rendezvous with every remarkable people that crossed my paths.

Too many beautiful stories I’ve penned here are collectively from beautiful people.

This month about ignorance and trusts, brought me to tour the innumerable limits of humanity. I have tasted that bittersweet distance of unawareness, even to some downright theory of bridging relationships. And that cue about trusts and beliefs, it was presented to me from some special homosapien that really ‘made’ my day with nothing but surprises unwelcomed. Although not very tasteful, but these things ordinary people gave, I received extraordinarily.

It was also profound when sunetra came alive and a special girl went through it with me. She was definitely more excited (or less excited with the concept of pain) and painted my regular boring day with colors. And this crappy guy that announced his Victory over his dream girl….I did a time-travel back to my teenager days! I thought only teenage boys do those kind of ‘animalistic’ announcement after getting their ‘prey’. But he did it once again, right before my eyes, and I was impressed. He tells me, excitement cum true love still exists – you just have to revive it. And then, that boring night of red-wines was cheered up by him! P/s: He was drunk on beer and shots--didn’t he…? No wonder lar so gungho! *blek

And what can I say about ronnystein -- all sorts of happiness, thankfulness and (of course!) also lame & mischievous episodes that I would never imagine could happen to me, is all happening in most fascinating ways. And definitely, it takes mutual effort to maintain this synergy. There are countless possibilities to limited abilities. Just like the (dumb) rule I’ve set for my bedding. I was vulnerable and all these years, I tried to suppress it with all the ‘buddies’ on my bed. Until the special first presence last night, I felt that I do have to relax and allow more possibilities to happen. Maybe it was disbelief, but that’s the inner truth about me. And do I have to make it clear I was weird? *geez

I cannot go through every month or person and make a summary. I am not good in summarization because I would end up writing another full fledge story out from the summary. Damn~

So this is dedicated to all beautiful people out there. My life was boring because I am not an initiator to make parties, events or conversations. But for each and every outing, gathering, or even through all your sensible chats – Yenny has got so much to write. And definitely as I write, I am a happier person.

Ordinary people, extraordinary tale….exclusively me! *winky

leo-moments now!

Can I say, this year end craze at work is finally over now? Who likes year end rush? Talking about work here, not shopping! Okay, I'm never a number person, and I'm mostly lazy to count discounted price while shopping. Get it? And there I struggled Budgeting Planner 2013 for the past few (disastrous) days. I am still lethargic now!

I need a good holiday, and I'm having it next week! Wheeeee..... Heavenly!

Miao miao Leo,
Remember my last trip to Bangkok and I got you the camouflage green shirt? You didn't get the chance to wear it. I wonder where did mom chucked it away. I've said that I would buy you something every Bangkok trip, because doggie clothes are so pricey at KL! Now... Hmmm.... Well okay. So how are you at Doggie Land huh? Miss you. Thinking of you! Thinking of us.

You will love to see the changes in me lately. If you are here, I'd bring you to my Little Nest, there's a swimming pool at rooftop! Ok maybe you don't like it there. But you can come in and stay with me. I can get you toilet trained and maybe at that corner I can make your sleeping mat. You love to cuddle and keep warm in cotton cloths right?

Or maybe you are still around, everything will never be the same as now. All events do really happen for a reason. You will only share moments with me in this very short term, because you came to my life to teach me what's thankfulness is all about. That nothing is permanent, but be thankful for every moment.

I am thankful for that special bonding you have given me, Leo. We never talked any language we both know, but you have never walked away at my lonely times. It is still very very touching when I remember, that night when I cried, you came and place your paw on my hands and rested your head on my lap. This, was beyond words. More than love.

Thanks, leo for coming into my life and leaving me with such priceless memories.

I have moved on. I have found Happiness. Now, leo... I want you to continue watching over me from Doggie Land so you will know if I have been loved truly.

It counts 12.12.12!

Everybody must be celebrating this date since yesterday. Me? I dozed off at dunno-wat-time. Until I received that lovely ding-dong call, and spent the only moment of 12.12.12 00:01 in sleepy head mode. *blush

I am now taking a hiatus from some meaningless row at work. I need a breather. Here I am at CBTL holding my a hot mocha latte and esse, chillaxing.

Until I spotted this piece of paper (or trash?) under the table. Yes I was nosy. I saw some chinese words, and I explored further. Meaningful, isn't it? Who on earth want to disown this? Or is this somehow dedicated to me?

Dear stranger,
Whatever situation you are in now, I wish you all happiness and pinky health. Only with these, you will draw yourself nearer to your dreams each day. If you are hurt or failed in love, don't fret. Love yourself more each day, just like how you want him/her to love you. In return, count your blessings and be thankful always.
Thank you for this note. You have made my day more special. And I hope someone will make your day too, with so much joy. Live Life Love.

Stranger, sorry I can't write chinese. But I know your notes, it is meaningful!

Happy 12.12.12 everyday.

Ignorance is bliss?

Carelessness is a form of attitude.

The way of life in simplest yet individualistic state. There are no boundaries to any actions made because nobody sets any parameters whatsoever. Considerations are only prerequisite but decisions are instant. But if you are in the game, therefore, ignorance is bliss?

Timeless event is a form of masterpiece.

Never stay put in any time track because it will be slowing paces down. The master of every nanoseconds, time is fragmented to such degree and never look back. Assuming everybody only has 24 hours, the masterpiece travels time in eternities. Never ending...like there isn't a need to make a hitch stop. Never tired...because time is always adequate for self recharge. But if you are in the game, therefore, ignorance is bliss?

Silent prayer is a form of unspoken love.

Not every dew drop of affection reaches the earth for nurturing. So much of morning mists locking the penetration of sunlight, but yet mesmerizing to the beholder. It will be most unnatural to force the cycle of nature, because it is matter of time that a careless whisper sets in to clear the way. But who contemplates such unspoken love? Only a silent prayer, that's all. But if you are in the game, therefore, ignorance is bliss?

VinYann's 1st Doctor visit

VinYann was screaming out loud when I reach home after work today. Face was strawberry red, with real tears! There must be some discomfort, and Carol was worried. I was worried too, definitely.

And so VinYann met with Dr. Chen, the pediatrician. The most elaborated and precise in every words he spoke; me and Carol was pleased with his speech. Some doctors like to murmur, just like their writings. Nobody can read a doctor's writing, not?

Of course, there wasn't any seriously wrong with VinYann. Just a little colic. She will be a cutie pie again blinky eye!

And so I've concluded, parenthood is never an attempt for clueless adults. This is not just a decision you make out of wit or curiosity. This is a decision made for a lifetime. A responsibility to carry with much joy and pleasure eternally.

you Believe in Trust?

You don’t go running across the board and says Trust Me, and turn your back doing all sorts of nonsense. You’d give yourself a lighter note if all you’ve said was Believe Me, and still continue doing that nonsense. This weighs down a hell lot of effort, especially the effort to maintain a trust.

It is a whimsical action when all expectations are laid down to a trustee in the most awkward situation. Trust, is a sort of conviction, reliance and immeasurable faith to a defined thought, action or even a person. When these ingredients go overboard, all you lose is not only broken trust. You lose hope. Not surprisingly, you lose all connections in the speed of sound. Mind me, not speed of light. It takes a lot of bravery to acknowledge there is no longer any trust, just a speck of treacherous dust. This takes time.

Hence, let’s all get down naked from such elevated paradigm today. Rather than putting or laying your trust…just says -- I’d believe in that something-whatsoever-you-have-promised-to-deliver. See? This sound so much breezy! Believing offer more personal space for speculations. I’d believe you with a sense of doubt. Ta-da!

With fewer expectations, you get less attached. While you control your attachments, you get more control over your emotions. And ultimately, you are not afraid to get kicked with some harsh reality come-what-may. Yes, easy? Not quite.

I was so affected, that’s why all these craps are written here. If I have stronger verbal communication skill, I would have slapped all these words straight to your face. I didn’t because I’m not a good talker, and I made a promise to remain my composure and be at peace in my most agitated moment. You were lucky. Blek!

... blushed !

I was already looking at a blank page for awhile. This should be the very first moment when I have millions of thoughts but couldn't find a proper sentence to describe. I've lost all powers of words manipulation.

Ok. Take a breather, yen. Just let the words flow.

I saw Helena at the receptionist area, and she looked as sweet as she always do. But, wait ... that bouquet from Kechara Blooms? Gosh. Full stop. Loss of words from this juncture onwards.

So much love. Every moment counts. I'd say it again, and again... I'm thankful to have you, Ron.

the beginning to an end

Here comes 1st Of December. Awkward. It feels that end of 2012 is approaching, but everything had just begun. At least, for me.

It is a wholesome chapter of revolution. Good things lost and found, in the most unexpected but inspiring ways. I am not counting the blessings as yet, because when good things become tangible...desires to own sets in. I can't confirm where is this heading, but sparingly building pathways that leads to needs of predetermined happiness.

It is beyond words to describe..some kind of possession that you get, but never owned. Hmmm... No, it shouldn't be pen this way. Not about possession. More like a different entity, but synergies had merged things together. And at some time, hopes are encouraging for a good blend of acquisition.

If I remained skeptical and maintained a distance, this beginning shall never end? I will take the chances, yes I do.