starry starry night...

As I gazed up the night sky, so many galactic stars! I looked away, and gazed again, they are still there. They are blinking telling me they won't leave me alone on a night like this. But I really wish they go away...dark gloomy skies filled with stars. Bad premonition, it shows you are...empty inside ( the dark gloomy part) ecstatic outsie ( those twinkies, what else?!?)

I blamed it on those medicines. I'm on drugs lately. Ohh yeah.. antibiotics, antivirus,anti inflammation,painkillers..you name it I've got it. I don't recall all kinds of sickness I have...uterus minor disallocation, chest congestion, skin psoriasis, slip disc at most recent..do I sound enough sicko already?

I don't care. There isn't anything that can practically scare the hell out of me anymore. Before this health issue, let's mention -- Car accidents I've got it too!! Voila, that makes me the most erm...Survived Jinx in da World? Thank u thank u..

Ageing is definitely not an issue either. I've just reached the big 3 in a simple, quiet, chillaxing way -- just the pefect way I wanted it. See?? I don't need celebrations too and I survived!!

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger -- who's who philosopher.

What doesn't kill you instantly makes you die a slower death -- Yennyho.

Life is too predictable when you reach a certain age. Unless you climb Mount Everest up and down everyday or eat maggots for fun...I can't find anything more amusingly exciting.

But, simplicity is true happiness. I may sound like a pessimist seeing the glass half empty, but I didn't complain why is the glass not full either. I may sound like suicidal having not much passion in life, but I don't need raging temper to keep life going on.

I am such because, as I gazed up the dark gloomy sky I see those stars. Main point is, i still have the time to push my chin up and look up high. There are so many out there, who seemed to have the most happening lifestlye, advancing career, delicious cash account, all that glitz & glamour -- had missed the chance to stop a little while, and enjoy the dark but meteoric skies. I didn't have all that yet, but i see stars. I see You.

Dont cross those borders

I do hate February. I don't understand why people cannot leave me alone this month. Yes yes so what this is birthday month. Don't you think I'm supposed granted with something I'd really want, instead of something you think I'd want??

I want peace. A peace of mind. Rather than challenge my patience and see if I could hold up to your hypocrisy. I don't need cakes and presents too. I want originality. Show me your real face and I'd thank you much.

Whatever it is, just stop bugging me. Stop pretend like you know me so well that you can add your personal views to my relationships, career or simply my well-being. To remind you, I'm an Aquarius, and therefore I don't need you to think I need to be reminded of things I can comprehend. An Aquarius can be a loner at times, only because she need more time for herself rather than squabbling with minorities like you.

So, don't give me a symphatetic look when I say get out of my line. I'm much better without certain things that doesn't add value to those beautiful things in my life.

Thanks.

a note for love

Wow, this gotta be the most romantic love letter I've ever shared..

Dear hubby,

It's good thing you didn't let me fetch you to the airport tonight. I was crying along the journey home. I wonder how bad it would be if I'd need to endure the pain if i had to see you leave at departure hall...

Like said, I was weeping like your baby on the way home. As I stopped at the junction, I remember the jokes we made. When the traffic light turns red, and I pushes the gear to neutral, it feels like how I used to help you release the gear when you drive me around town. As the songs play, I could hear you singing along too..How I love your off-tune...There are still countless of things that made my spirits weaken. I wanted to give all this up and decide never to continue this journey without you..

But you know I won't. I braved myself to continue accelerating, knowing although this is tough, but never alone. Togetherness is bliss, and I'm blessed to be given a chance to learn about life with you.

Hubby, I don't worry about how much wealth you will find for me, I don't care if there will be any treasure presented to me upon your return. I only wish that you will be healthy at body, mind and soul..every moment. I hope too you will enjoy life and see this world as a beautiful place like how you have taught me about life. I pray that your days will be blessed and all interesting moments mesmerizing you...always.

Love,
Your life partner


Gosh. I love simplicity. Especially in love.

There's only 15days!??!

I don't want to go back to reality yet,please.... Let's celebrate tuan yuan again, lots of lou sang and screaming Huattttt arrrr at anytime anywhere. Isn't that nice?

I don't want go to bed earlier than 2am and I want to talk bear languages like a baby. Ok, that's what i virtually did during the cny. I want to wake up not earlier than 2pm either and searches thru the fridge like a predator. Grarrr... I want food..

But above all, no ang pow for me please. Thanks but no thanks. Because I don't need you to remind me the fact that I'm over age to receive that little red packet from you. Further, it's not like you pack hundreds of bucks in there. Only ten bucks (or so) and you want to bring me thru that kind of noice pollution?!?! Thanks but no thanks.

I will not get married because I feel paiseh for taking yet another red packet from you. And I obviously do not need that 'huge' amount of ang pow money of yours to survive my singleton life. I love life more than your tinee winee ang pow, ok bo? Blek.

But...I still want to enjoy holiday.. I love cny... Let's not stop celebrating ya..

When you desire for pure happiness and contentment, and count your every blessings...it's cny everyday. Minus the working boredom, monstrous boss, moronic colleagues and crazy traffic congestion, it's really cny everyday indeed. I love life.

I love life, celebrating!