what a 30th Dec 2009!

Great. I fainted a.k.a KO for my first time in Makati, and it happens just right before the new year turns in. I don't have any idea of why and how I passed out, but I'm lucky to have Bobby with me that time....

It happened at Hap Chan Restaurant, we were having late supper around 1.30a.m. We chatted happily until I felt uneasy and I told B that I feel like vomiting. In fact, I don't even sure if all I wanted was to vomit. I just felt a sudden loss of mind and I felt cold all over....I tried to get up and excused myself to the washroom. My last memory was the toilet door is locked and I turned around to get back to my table.....

And there and then, I fainted. Just boomphh....right there.

I don't even know how long I've passed out, but all I heard was Bobby's voice calling me...I knew my eyes are opened, but I couldn't see a single thing. I hold B so tightly, I even asked him "B, are my eyes open? I can't see you...."

Fainting this time feels like a cut of signal on tv. You don't get any visuals, just dark and you hear all kinds of funny voices around. And for that single moment, I thought I'm blind. And it scares the hell out of me.

Of course, I'm better now. I get pains on my left shoulder and neck; and a few bruises on my knee. The worst bruise I got on my chin - because B said I fell faced down.....



Hope the worst is over, and a new year may bring new beginning, new hopes and better luck.

I shall retreat

I had a dream. It was such a mystical dream, that I couldn't believe it was just a dream. Here I am, woke up into reality; I wish I could write every single detail of the dream I had. A dream I struggle to wake up from.....

The scene ahead of me is so smoky, I couldn't really see where I am. Despite the lousy vision, I can hear birds chirping melodiously, children's laughter and horses galloping. I think I'm at a country-side or something. I try to visualize better and I see beautiful greenery, mountains way up high and soft clouds cuddles. I'm right there standing at a small village...and I see lots of people riding horses. Nobody seems to walk on their own feet there, they move around on horses....

A little girl approaches me and signals that I should have a horse of my own also. Just like everyone else there. So I looked around and I spotted a black horse....not too muscular, with big curly hair and doesn't look too attractive like other horses available. But I thought, maybe I can try to ride this horse and with much love & attention, I might be able to transform him to a better horse.

I rode this horse where ever I go, what ever I do. I put all energy to establish a great undying love with this horse, and I always tell myself; it doesn't matter this is not the perfect horse, it suits me right. However, learning to ride a horse gracefully ain't easy. Throughout the years, I've fallen down, bumped my head on the ground, faces much failure and heart-break with this horse. But I didn't give up just yet, I climb up the horse again and heeee-yaaah...commands it to run further towards the future with me. And there am I, riding the horse I've chosen at this small, neat village - just like others did.

One day, as I rode the horse near to the seaside, the horse gets grumpy again and throws me into the water. He didn't care that I might get hurt or anything, or I could be drowned by the sea....he just needs to throw a tantrum. I was struggling hard to hold on some tree branches along the banks, and fights my way up to get some air. By then, I hear the ding-dong ringing aloud from the light-house. The sound was so deafening and all of a sudden I'm back to the village again - without my horse.

The little girl holds my hand again and said "Maybe you should just leave your horse alone...for awhile. Try to walk with your own feet. Maybe you won't fall....."

I looked everywhere around the village, trying to find a warm, comfortable place for a rest. I walked further into the woods, and I see a big, old cypress tree ahead. I try to make myself comfortable, and rest there....hoping my horse will eventually comes back to me soon....

Two weeks had passed, my horse didn't return to me. Feeling so weak and useless, I crawled back into the village and hope to find the little girl again. She's no where to be seen. Helpless, I began calling my horse's name despite my hoarse voice due to dehydration. From afar, I see a horse coming towards me, but he already have another girl riding on his back this time. She told me to let the horse go, because he was never happy nor contented for having me as his rider. I always feed to much stress and burden to him, and he finally found his best rider in just 2 week's time. Never measure love with any time-line, because years of companionship cannot be compared to love at first sight - or so it seems......

I was left lying in the middle of the road, dangerously curled myself up in a foetus position - didn't care the eerie sound of hundred horses galloping near me. I should be dead, why can't any horses just stomp on me...I can't be anywhere without my horse. I can't be home without him...I'm lonely yet I don't have the courage to ride any horse again...

Just when I thought I can stand on my both feet again and try walking home, only I realized my both legs are gone. I'm paralyzed from waist-down. I never had legs in my life. It was my horse that makes me a person...a complete person....

Memories @ Enchanted Kingdom Manila PHP

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Memories @ Ocean's Park Manila PHP

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Post Xmas, pre-2010~~

Phew...there goes Christmas 2009...! And here comes 2010~~~

My holiday was spent with utmost happiness and enjoyment for the past few days. Apart from the Ocean's Park which I spoke about earlier, went to Enchanted Kingdom too! The EK is adopting the Disney's Land concept, but of course they (the Pinoys) still need lots of efforts and developments in order to achieve the Disney's standard. However, if I need to rate it from 1 - 10, I can still give it an 8 out of 10, slightly better than the Ocean's Park. Its very much like our very own Sunway Lagoon, just without the water park. Other than that, the games are very much alike. Nevertheless, I'm quite satisfied with their effort to create a street fiesta with lots of dancing and singing by the mascots of the park. This part of event surely win more hearts than Sunway Lagoon.

It was a tiring holiday too...so much of walking and "jumping-like-a-kid" around, I almost got full body cramps all over. But, am feeling great that I've enjoyed myself very much....Christmas @ Makati didn't turn out so bad as expected anyway...!

Dong-Jie @ Manila Ocean's Park

Finally, it's Dong Jie 2009 lar...wonder if SuperDad & SuperMom are enjoying their tong yuen at home.....without ME ....Well, am not feeling too bad, because I know for very sure, I'll be home with SuperBags when next year's Dong Jie comes.

Had a full day at Manila Ocean's Park today. It was a nice trip and the mega aquarium had reached my expectations as a tourist. Of course it is nothing compared to those located at HK, Singapore & some other European countries, but the place is still rated 7 out of 10...not too bad for an Asian country huh~

Have planned for Enchanted Kingdom tomorrow, but doubt if can make it -- cos I'm damn tired now! Better rest early. Will update with photos and videos of my journey soon.

Good Night, Pa Ma....Happy Dong Jie

A slow & peaceful Sunday~

Got off-work early again today. There weren't many games on our listing and most of the matches were postponed due to snowy weather at most European countries. Since the workload is not heavy, we are allowed to get off earlier. Most of my colleagues were so excited and their hoo-hahs are leading them to karaoke, pubs or disco. But me, I've decided to stay home and take a good good rest. Well, I've just recovered from food poisoning and I'm feeling rather feverish today. I hope there's nothing serious about the heat, or else I can't really enjoy my planned holidays. I am holding my water bottle now and need to force myself to drink lots (really LOTS) of water to cool down the temperature.

Heard from my friend that this coming Tuesday is Dong-Jie, a Chinese traditional festival celebrated a month before the Lunar New Year. I left a big sigh and think "I'm gonna miss Mom's tong-yuen this year...."

I've always been the most excited one at HOME whenever Dong-Jie arrives. Apparently, I'm the only one that loves to eat tong-yuen that Mom makes. Dad doesn't savor too much of it because it's sweet and Bro is always emotionless and ignorant about this kinda festival thingy. So, every year's Dong-Jie, I would demand Mom to wake me up early morning so I can mold the tong-yuen with her. During the process, despite roundy tong-yuen - you will expect to see bear-shaped tong yuen, moon-shaped tong yuen, and sometimes even Ultraman-faced tong yuen. Of course Mom will complain about this childish behavior, but we both will always finish the task with all smiles and happiness.....

And this year, Mom will have to make tong yuen all by herself.......but I promise, I really promise, we will be doing this together again next year...and all the years afterward.

An aimless Saturday...

My health is getting better already today...Got a good rest at home, and as predicted - lots of rest and proper medication helps along the way...!

My conscience
A part of my inner voice is striking - telling me that I've somehow changed from the "old" person I used to be. Of course I would have expected some kind of transformation while going abroad, good things bad things; but I think I'm more reserved and less truthful it seems. I know consciously that I do make more "white" lies compared to the way I was back home. In short, I am just not as truthful as I used to be. Many things here, you just can't seems to tell the whole truth; maybe just you feel there is a need to protect yourself from something. If you flares too much of your own true colors, you somehow feel naked and not shielded. Working abroad makes you think you need to protect yourself even more than ever. But protecting from what - is not obvious. Knowing this today, I feel a sense of guilt in me. If I need to sway from strangers, what about those whom I love and those who loves me? A lie is a lie; and I don't think I ever wanted to be not so truthful around things shared with my loved ones at all. I need to make a good shift of aura, and remind myself that I do not need to be afraid to say things in my mind whenever I'm with my closest friends/family. I must be able to categorize those people whom I can be truthful with; and those whom I don't need to. I need to gain my consciousness.

Friends
I miss all my friends back at HOME. This is really the difference of friends at work, and friends who grows up with you. Friends here are like acquaintances, people you know but does not leave a great impact in you life. But those bunch of crazy clan I have way back, they are those people that will make you say things like "I would love to hang out with you again" The festive season is around the corner, and 2009 is drawing end, I miss those "reunion" outings we usually have. Of course we were basically busy with our own lives, but those dinner/yam cha moments does counts. Even I do have countless drinking session here in Makati, it really does not compare to those Girl-Night-Out we have back then....that's the difference of friends, and ol'-friends.....I love all of U and I'm sure U know I'm talking about U now...muaks!

My holidays at Makati
Will be spending my Xmas here this year. Planned for an exciting trip to the Enchanted Kingdom, Ocean's Park and parties during the last week of 2009. Look forward to it so much and hopes it does leave us with sweet memories. Dear, let's get geared-up and start the journey soon!

到底什么时候才会想起我?

from naughty to sickie

yeah! Down with food poisoning today. Been pooing for 5 times in between 8.28am - 9.30am. Having cracked lips and shaky legs on the way to the hospital. Doctor says its quite serious to have poo-ed 5 times in less than an hour; and suggested that I get admitted to the hospital for some IV drops...

I REFUSED!

Now, I'm not going to stay in the hospital. It's too scary. So I told the doctor that I'll monitor myself at home first, and should the diarrhea and vomiting persists even after the medication; then I would go for the the IV drops. So doctor agress and let me home - and issued a 2 days MC.

NOW, it's past 5 hours since my first medicine. I didn't go to the toilet so often now, and I don't feel so nauseous anymore. Great smart decision that I didn't get myself admitted to the scary dark hospital ward.

I THINK the doctors here in Philippines are always over-exaggerated. Well, should I get any regular food poisoning way back @ HOME, I don't think Dr. Hu would immediately send me to the hospital without any close supervision first. Well, of course pooing 5 times in an hour sounds bad, but isn't that the case due to no medication given to me yet? Like now, after the antibiotics + stop vomiting + stop diarrhea + painkillers = less need to poo = I'm getting better. Why do I need to get IV drops when I can take fluids (& medicine) orally?

Like my previous visit for a bad sore throat & fever, they demanded I should get a <1 ml blood test for "just-in-case. Arrgggg????? Blood test for some hay fever caused by a sore throat. GREAT. and the doctor actually wrote "Viral Infection" on my report. I think any good doctors back in KL would just diagnose it as "Body Heat / Too Little Water / Too Much Partying" hahahaha....

Any diagnosis they want to make, it's good that I do feel better after medication. And 2 days MC.

Naughty me..

I'm in a terribly naughty mood today. Not anything slimy, but I'm just in the mood to disturb and make fun with my friends tonight - including my maid. I don't know why; I'm just having the rhythm to be little naughty devil and L.O.L with everybody at home.

My maid was one of my "victim". Since she can't speak fluent English, I was talking in an non-existence language with her and pretend that I'm speaking in English. When she says she cannot understand me, I made face in disbelief that she can't understand such simple instructions. As she tried harder to know what I'm saying, I said "Walak tagalog..." Then only she knew I was tricking her.

Other than my maid, I don't know who will be my next victim....Bobby maybe.

My 1st pair of B.O.O.T.S!

I've finally got myself a pair of knee length boots, for the first time in my life. I know I can't really wear it in too many occasion, but it just didn't stopped me from loving boots since I was a teenager. And what da heck, I only got the guts to buy it when I'm 27 years old!

So, mission accomplished! Yenny with her new pair of boots!

Here comes another Monday...

Time flies....in a super fast bullet train! When I typed the topic, it just felt like deja-vu that I wrote the same topic yesterday. Wonders why Mondays always comes earlier than Saturday @,@

There's really nothing very special happened in this whole week. It's no longer as busy as it was in November, and there are lesser bombastic conversation hushing around office lately. Some seniors who have their chance to get back home for Xmas are undeniably excited, while those that have to stay back at work (me!)....seems unaffected. Nobody really talk about Xmas here. Maybe there are big mass of multicultural people here, and everyone has their respective favorite holidays...

As for me, there really isn't a big surprise that I won't be back home for Xmas this year. I've known that newbies got to stay back as early as November, so I'm kinda 'immune' to it already. Rather then spend time whining why I can't go home, I might as well try to enjoy my first Xmas at Philippines. Heard there will be lots of parties and caroling when Xmas approaches..and hope I will see something new by then.

Whatever it is....just another week to Xmas. Which means, just another 2 weeks to the end of 2009!~~~

and I'll be another year older?!?!?

the Lazy-BUM

I've been so lazy and kept giving myself excuses from going to the gym lately. I don't know why. And every time when I've finally decided NOT to go working out, guiltiness overwhelmed me....so contradicting....

My heart says NO, but my conscience says YES

Arrggh.....!!!!!!!! I'm so afraid that I'll grow fatter & fatter if I ever skipped gym again, but but but....I'm just so tired lately. The restlessness had reached a level where it's an obstacle to even lift my both lazy legs for a mini walk....

What's happening to me....lazy bum-bum?

How did you sleep?

Good morning sweetheart, how did you sleep?
I didn't get one hour because you weren't next to me
I tossed and turned, tried to close my eyes
The bed was so cold without you by my side

Lately I been up thinking about you, not getting any rest
I tried holding my pillow, but it doesn't compare to your chest
I tried putting on music, but it doesn't compare to your heart beat
I needed your warmth, and your feet on my feet

Good morning baby, what did you dream?
Were you my hero, calming my fears and screams?
Were we on a beach holding hands, watching the sun go down
Making love, ruffling the sheets, exalting loud sounds?

Lately I been up thinking about you, dreaming of your lips
My heart pounds fast and occasionally the beat skips
I tried to dream longer and not interrupt the bliss
I didn't want to awake from the most beautiful kiss

Good morning sweetheart, how did you sleep?

~CHELSEA~

Here comes Monday...

The swollen right foot
The doctor says I should not be too worry about it - just regular bites. She gave me some kind of anti-inflammation cream to apply on. But I'm still worry sick! Even though it doesn't swell as much, but the bite mark still looks pretty bad. As I checked properly, that insane insect was aiming right at my vein when it bites. Wonder if it sucks any blood out of it. Yeah, talking about blood, the wound looks slightly blue-ish too. Guess it must be a big angry insect hiding in my stockings that night...
Well, will monitor it for few days, and if still looks ugly - will get the doctor to fix it again...!

Bad Monday blues for Supervisors
So, supervisors are indeed human too eh? He was in such bad mood today, that he purposely marked on our small mistakes during the job. We didn't really flared it so badly, but maybe he just need to throw some tantrums before let us leave. So, we let him of course. This is the undeniable organization hierarchy in every office - when your superior gets bad mood, you get the spanking!

Monday is leave me alone day!
Haha...sounds drastic. Well, what I really meant is I don't have to mood to go socializing today. Maybe I do have my Monday blues too (but I can't spank my supervisor). I just feel like having a good, peaceful, enjoyable night alone. Maybe one does not really need to be surrounded by friends all the time. There are pretty times when it's just as cozy to munch some tit-bits while surfing the net in the room. Not talking to others for awhile can help in resting my blabber mouth too. But who can stand loneliness for too long? Maybe just for tonight.

Went to 7-11 and got my favorite Apple Juice and some snacks. Came home had a steamy hot bath and headed straight to my routine face mask. And here am I now, updating my blog while munching my favorite Pringle's....! It's good to be alone some times...!

Swollen right foot

I've got a swollen right foot today...was feeling the itchiness but didn't know it got swollen

Think got bitten by some-kinda unknown insects living on my bed. Am so worried that it is somehow poisonous or harmful. By the way, if I don't die within 24 hours since the bite, then it should not be toxic, right? Applied some antiseptic cream and bandaged it with a big-big plaster....hopes it's getting better tomorrow.

If not, must rush to the doctor then!

Happiness; from a distance...

As I looked through the pages, I realized that I have too much resentment about coming to Makati City. I always says I miss home, or it's far too lonely here, or time passes by like a sloth's movement. A friend of mine posted something on my wall yesterday, telling me that if I have taken a step back, the world will look better.

True. I took a few step back tonight, and I was mesmerized by the way on how the world looks better. It does really looks better.

If I have not traveled so far, I wouldn't know how difficult it is to take good care of myself. If I have not decided to venture here all by myself, I wouldn't know how great a simple companionship would be to me. If I have not decided to leave home, I wouldn't know why Mom always reminds me that family ties is the most unbreakable bond that lives soundly inside us. If I hadn't come, I would have still taking things for granted, many things...

Ask me if I'm any regretful of my decision to work abroad - not really. This is an experience I would never get if I'm still any ordinary "office-lady" at KL; or if I worked any harder to get any positional level in whichever company I'm in.

I feel a sudden mass transformation in myself - my whole new living style with brand new thoughts.

Now I know what are the things I really hate to do, and what are the things that truly makes me a happier-relaxed-contented person. I know how to chill out when people or things are going my opposite ways and I know when to be cruel when I need to be. I know how to say sorry and never feel any sorry about anything. I know how to be wrong at times and still not feel guilty afterward. I know how to shrug off a bad comment in my mind but yet pretend as if I'm really taking his/her bad comments into deep consideration.

I finally know how to make good use of negativity and turn it into my own prospected optimism. Now, I can have a very bad day and yet enjoys its next moment. I'm not so plastic anymore. I acknowledges my right to be bad; but never forgets to indulge myself with more love, hopes and dreams....

My first massage @ Makati

Been feeling restless, tired and stiff lately. I go to bed early every day and wakes up at the same time every morning. Maybe I have skipped a few gym session as I was having heavy menstrual flow last week, but that should not be the case that I'm feeling so bad lately. My back hurts, and I'm having stiff muscles all around my shoulders and neck. I think I had enough....

Headed straight to KS's place after work today and dragged him out from home - demanding him to introduce a good massage parlor for me. It was so surprising that he willingly brought me to a reflexology massage parlor and introduced me to a few therapist that he got to know from his previous visits. And the female therapists there actually greets him as Sir Andrew.....LOL...!

(I like the name - Andrew!)

I've got a petite young lady as my therapist today. Her name is Grace. Even though she's got small body frame, but I have to put up a good applause to her massaging skills. Yeah, it hurts a little when she pressed hard on some of my problematic muscles, but I believe that it should be treated this way. If not, sooner or later the muscles will create strains and ache if I don't do anything about it.

Maybe the exercises that I do at the gym is not thorough enough, as I do not have any personal trainer to teach me proper stretching skills. Running on treadmills, walking on the steps machine and lifting dumb-bells aren't intensive enough.....It still feels good to have a full body reflexive massage once in awhile ;p

And with all the ooohss and ahhhss I've got from the massage just now, it only costs me 300Peso + 100Peso as tipping....so affordable (and cheap!)...

Gotta return to that lovely parlor for manicure, facial cleasing & massage, foot reflex and get real with some pampering stuffs!

and last but not least, thank you sir Andrew.....
hahahahhahahahaha!

Her "devilish-tail" is finally out!

Well, I'm talking about my maid here....as everyone of us knows, there are usually more cons than pro for having a maid at home actually. Just like any regular Indo-maids we have in Malaysia, they do pretend to be nice and obedient during the early stage, but later on when they finally know their master's way of living...their devilish tail will reveal...!

Same here with my Filipino maid, Joy. She seems to be okay at first, but now she became more lazy and demanding. Well, she doesn't clean the house as we have expected. My toilet is always wet, even after I asked her to clean it thoroughly. She doesn't report to work on time (her off day is from 5pm Saturday to 5pm Sunday) and she doesn't show up until Monday afternoon. Previously, she would still use some slimy excuses for not coming back on time like her son is sick or her husband needs her (sexually??!?) bla bla bla....but now she doesn't even care to give us anymore notice. She just doesn't come home on Sunday evening and pretend as if nothing happened on Monday!

Since Nis had joined in to our dorm, she is demanding for a raise just because she needs to serve another person extra! So we reasoned with her saying that there were originally 7 person staying in the house but Roslina had moved out with her boyfriend. So, Nis's headcount is not extra, she is just claiming the empty space we have. Last time when our maid need to serve only 6 of us was already a privilege to her! After that she changed her direction saying it's very tiring for her to do laundry for 7 person.....

What da F**K...!!!

I think she will soon becoming a history....