Pleasure of pain

I love wedges. Or platforms some may call it. But I think those are wedges because platforms are 180 degrees flat but wedges gives you curves. Wedges works like any high heels or stilettos effect, but less risky because it balances the gravity pull. I love wedges, at least 2 inches type.

I've been fetish-ing about wedges since I came back from Makati. I got my very first pair at CK and hadn't stop buying whenever I spot a fancy pair.

This black classic wedges I loved so much from Charles Keith, I finally wear today. Gosh, all confidence over pouring on me and I felt good. Until it bites me and left bristles at all soft spots of my tiny feet.

I have loved it too much to bear the pain. People say, you must bite it first before it starts biting you. No matter how much beauty it adorns, pain comes when you allow it to empower you.

If I knew how to be less vulnerable to the attachments, I wouldn't feel so much pain now. I could have just said, if pain is what you will bring to me, I am much better left without having you. At least, I wouldn't allow a single chance for your deceitful beauty to bite me.

Or could it be better if I learned to bite you first before you bites?

With this pain, will I give up on wedges? No. Because not all wedges will bite.

doggie got mail !

Hey Leo,

How's doggie land, so far? If I need to think of you, I'd close my eyes and imagine... Green soft grass, meadow all over the mountains. Cool breeze eloping rainbows and marshmallow clouds. All doggies will eventually meet their human friends there...one fine beautiful day...

That beautiful day, will surely come.

Baby has arrived last month, and now she is 1 month 4 days old. Ho Vin Yann...she looked almost alike Gary, except for her eyes, like Carol. Beautiful baby, having all fair values and resemblance from both daddy and mommy. I think she will surely love you, Leo. When she is older, I will tell her all about you. How you brought joy and laughter to all of us before Vinyann join in the family. Vinyann must know, a pet so dear to us, and how much this pet means to us. And Vinyann must learn gratitude, thankfulness and contentment, all sorts of lovely memories Leo had brought to us. You were part of family, and always will. Vinyann loves you too, Leo. Vinyann already love you when she was in her mother's womb.

Me? You know how I have been. You could always hear me from above, didn't you. I chose a new path of life, but I wasn't brave like how I used to. Until today, I am still having countless fear inside. Afraid that I will fail all those promises I've made, afraid of the uncertainties, afraid of my own cowardliness within...but honestly, I am already lethargic of so many agenda. I don't have extra time to be afraid. Just march ahead, and come what may. Life is vulnerable. By the end of that single breath, all will be gone and my journey continues at doggie land with you. Pinky swear, we will live a good life until we meet again.