sick + alone = only lonely

What is the best indicator that you are all alone, you might think. Well, when you are sick (you don't need to be very sick like a sicko) and as you look around, you are all alone, that is when you are really lonely. Loneliness...is like a hole in the heart. The heart still pumps, just kinda irregular and uncomfortable. Meaning, you won't die out of loneliness....but it haunts you when thinking how long will this lasts.

Nah~ I'm not very sick. Just mild throat inflammation caused by overheated body temperature.But nevertheless, I've been feeling kinda empty for the past few days....

Am worrying dead for all at home. Bro's wedding is nearing, but a sudden spark of disharmony sets in. Don't know which black cat cursed Mom and Joyce...they can't possible get things right with each other. Of course, Dad and I are very upset with this situation, but reckoned it's out of our league to solve. Urrgghh....woman~

Am not quite enjoying work lately. The drama queen is out for a foul play again (and again and again....) and she is so affecting the aura at work. I struggled to find balance everyday and not let her screenplay defeat my peace...but I lost. She was last year's Grammy winner. Best Actress, Best Script, Best Sob, Best Casting, Best Plot. All I have to say is, "Get lost, bitch"

Well, maybe it's parts & pieces here and there that accumulates to my resentments to face life alone. And therefore, ladies and gentlemen...let's give your loudest applause to...loneliness.

You see, when a person is in doubt (I mean lots of doubt) the immune system goes weaker and weaker everyday. I pumped Vitamin C everyday, and yet am getting a cold paired with dumb throat infection now.

Life's ironic huh.