I brought this Manjushri many years ago at mid valley. I couldn't tell why I have extraordinary liking, fondness, respect ... I don't know how to describe in words. I just feel very close to her. Well, there's no him or her, but i prefer to address as 'she' because Manjushri is forever gentle in transcending wisdom. Forever loving.
Just out of wit, I told mom not to keep Manjushri inside the display cabinet anymore. I want to place her at the altar. I want to see her everyday.
And so, mom sent her to sifu's place for chanting and blessings. I tried to be on vegetarian and washed my face with pure milk every morning. Part and parcel of some ritual. Honestly, I was quite rebellious and complained of those fussy rituals at first. I thought all that will distance me from believing because I disapprove fussy rituals.
Tonight, is the night. I had to wear all white, washed my hands with milk before I go to take her. But miracle happened. Despite all the complains I had in my heart earlier over the rituals, I was suddenly lost of words. My heart was racing, I sweat hot and cold, I was nervous.
And the moment I placed her on the altar, I really felt like I knew her. Not for years but centuries. I feel that I must have known her, we must be very close like best friends. I have so much to tell her but my heart was heavy. I didn't know where to start telling. That's why I say I got a feeling like knowing her. It feels like reunion. After very very very long.
I feel that Manjushri is 'home' with me. Gosh, it is so unbelievable and I can continue saying all these feelings the whole night. I feel very very blessed. Very very touched. Truly mesmerizing
Whatever this fate brings, thank you, Manjushri.
Om Ah Ra Pa Tsa Na Dhi
She will make sure you sleep well everynight.And your wisdom will overcome whatever you encounter.
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