Driving. Leaving Plaza Sentral heading towards home. Okay, I knew that dumb curvy intersection leading to Chinese Assembly Hall will be dead jammed. So I'd rathexit at Jalan Pudu passing the Pudu Raya stretch.
Hey..surprizing! It's not jammed at all. Barely any obstacles along the way! Well, it was pouring cats and dogs, so I slowed down to 20-40km/h. No fret. I'm in control of the situation. Still no jammed until the third traffic lights. Ahead of me is Pudu Raya station...still not many cars...hmmm....
Okay, passing by Lee Yan Kean Surgery & Clinics...I feel weird. Eventhough it's raining heavily, I can see that the water level is rising as I stroll along. Ok..it's getting higher..and higher...it all happened so fast!
Gosh. i don't know what to do. I don't know if I should accelerate and brave the flooding road, or I should just pull over and wait until the water reside (as if it will at anytime soon). Nope, if I stay put, the water is only rising and rising until my car submerge into a pool of muddy water....arrgghhh...NOoooooooo!!
That was when I shouted, "Daddy Mommy Help Me...!!!!!!!!!!!" several times, real loud! I was squeezing the steering real hard, it could break at anytime. And mind you, I didn't stop shouting (or was it chanting?) "Daddy Mommy Help Me..!!!!"
Ok, I was dramatic. I was a drama queen. But I didn't care.
hey !!! There's another hero driver in front of me! He's braving the (flood?) and he accelerates through slowly. I should follow him! No. I MUST follow him. If he can make it, so can I. If he can't, then no harm drowning with a hunk, no?!??
Ok...he saved me. Or not, his presence saved me. His bravery saved me, indirectly.
As I re-told this incident to both my bags, they said he's the Bodhisattva that our Guardian Angel sent to guide me the way. Yea, I called for my parent's help, and Guardian Angels heard me. Or in fact, they are really the my Guardian Angels. 'They' are my parents. They are always here...Not somewhere else you pray to be at only when you die. You can find Nirvana just below your parent's feet.
Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu
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Saturday, January 21, 2012
Saturday, January 7, 2012
first Saturday of 2012
Whoa...it's 2012! ........ and there's really nothing extremely special about it, right? Except that it is another year after 2011, and next year it's gonna be 2013? But according to the Mayan calendar, there won't be any 2013. Not even 21.12.2012 because the world will end by 20.12.2012. Damn, I thought that would be an auspicious date! Now, I have to think of another day to get married =P
Okay.....cut the crap. Write something meaningful. This is my first blog into year 2012 tho.
I don't remember how cranky was 2011. Everyone said they look forward to a better year in 2012, because they think 2011 had been less fascinating for them. Well, I can't really say that because I don't know if 2011 was really bad indeed. I can't measure and therefore can't benchmark it.
I went to work as usual last Tuesday (Monday was a public holiday). My colleagues never changed and boss is still like a boss. So there's no difference in this area. How would I be able to tell if I'd hope for better version of colleagues & boss? Un-tick in wish-list.
The traffic was as bad (even worse) as it was every other day in 2011. Traffic polices are the same moronic team and I still don't have a clue about malaysian unethical driving behaviour. Un-tick again.
Family...Buddies...Friends...my Pet...status quo. All well ends well in 2011. I was blessed, because they hadn't change. I don't want them to have any drastic change affecting my life. They should still linger with me and paint my days colorful like they always have. So, un-tick again.
Hooray! Means there's nothing much I'd wish to improve/downgrade/change from year 2011. And coming into 2012, my life can just be almost the same like I had in any other year. Well, scenarios can be different. But I'd wish (hear my prayers!) that everyone and everything will be well & happy as always. If there should be some challenges, let those be incidents all of us face with courage & faith. After which, we will all be thankful and rejoice that 2012 is gonna be just like those good ol' days too.....
Don't count the time. Count the blessings.
Okay.....cut the crap. Write something meaningful. This is my first blog into year 2012 tho.
I don't remember how cranky was 2011. Everyone said they look forward to a better year in 2012, because they think 2011 had been less fascinating for them. Well, I can't really say that because I don't know if 2011 was really bad indeed. I can't measure and therefore can't benchmark it.
I went to work as usual last Tuesday (Monday was a public holiday). My colleagues never changed and boss is still like a boss. So there's no difference in this area. How would I be able to tell if I'd hope for better version of colleagues & boss? Un-tick in wish-list.
The traffic was as bad (even worse) as it was every other day in 2011. Traffic polices are the same moronic team and I still don't have a clue about malaysian unethical driving behaviour. Un-tick again.
Family...Buddies...Friends...my Pet...status quo. All well ends well in 2011. I was blessed, because they hadn't change. I don't want them to have any drastic change affecting my life. They should still linger with me and paint my days colorful like they always have. So, un-tick again.
Hooray! Means there's nothing much I'd wish to improve/downgrade/change from year 2011. And coming into 2012, my life can just be almost the same like I had in any other year. Well, scenarios can be different. But I'd wish (hear my prayers!) that everyone and everything will be well & happy as always. If there should be some challenges, let those be incidents all of us face with courage & faith. After which, we will all be thankful and rejoice that 2012 is gonna be just like those good ol' days too.....
Don't count the time. Count the blessings.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
DRII Qualifying Exam - Passed!
Dear Foong Yen Ho,
I am very pleased to inform you that you have achieved a passing score on the DRI International Qualifying Examination that you took in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia on December 9, 2011. On behalf of the Commission at DRI International, I extend our sincere congratulations on your achievement......
Ray Seid
Commission Chair
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Well, the rest is.....a brighter future ahead. It's not fully confirmed that I will certainly have better career, but at least I look forward to it.
Career (ok ok career is SALARY) aside. I'd like to praise myself a little bit. It's personal achievement. It was difficult test. It felt like bullet through my heart. It was difficult. Really. So I feel good about myself. I should be happy and feel proud of myself.
I am thankful for all who laid their positive (and nice!) thoughts for me throughout. I am also very sure Guardian Angels have been staying with me, even at the ugliest time. Thanks. Thanks.
I am very pleased to inform you that you have achieved a passing score on the DRI International Qualifying Examination that you took in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia on December 9, 2011. On behalf of the Commission at DRI International, I extend our sincere congratulations on your achievement......
Ray Seid
Commission Chair
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Well, the rest is.....a brighter future ahead. It's not fully confirmed that I will certainly have better career, but at least I look forward to it.
Career (ok ok career is SALARY) aside. I'd like to praise myself a little bit. It's personal achievement. It was difficult test. It felt like bullet through my heart. It was difficult. Really. So I feel good about myself. I should be happy and feel proud of myself.
I am thankful for all who laid their positive (and nice!) thoughts for me throughout. I am also very sure Guardian Angels have been staying with me, even at the ugliest time. Thanks. Thanks.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
my December 2011
I wish I'm at Makati City in a blink of eye. Blink..Blink..Blink..Blink..Blink.....Ok I am still here. Sadistic.
December was the best month I had at Makati. I miss the Symphony of Dancing Lights at Ayala Triangle. I so wanting to hear a Xmas Carols by kids and adults alike at malls now. I want to stroll the street at night with cool breeze brushing my skin, accompanied by colorful bright lights decorated at buildings or any corner of the street they can find place to set-up. I want to joke and guess if the shadowing figure up-front the quiet street is a real man or Jesus statue. I want to be there at Makati this December, so much more than any other month.
I wish, but I know how slim the chances are happening. I can't go.
I have a personal aim to accomplish next Monday. I want to go study again, and I want to try my best and get that gawd damn certification. I want to, like I've always wanted to be Associate Business Continuity Professional (ABCP) Certified. I hope I can, I will try to be. Om Ah Ra Pa Tsa Na Dhi. May I be bestowed with wisdom and mind clarity to pass this assessment.
Therefore, I don't think it is good time to dream yet. Life has it's time for reality, and this coming week definitely requires it. I have the blessing. All I gotta do is make it happen.
December was the best month I had at Makati. I miss the Symphony of Dancing Lights at Ayala Triangle. I so wanting to hear a Xmas Carols by kids and adults alike at malls now. I want to stroll the street at night with cool breeze brushing my skin, accompanied by colorful bright lights decorated at buildings or any corner of the street they can find place to set-up. I want to joke and guess if the shadowing figure up-front the quiet street is a real man or Jesus statue. I want to be there at Makati this December, so much more than any other month.
I wish, but I know how slim the chances are happening. I can't go.
I have a personal aim to accomplish next Monday. I want to go study again, and I want to try my best and get that gawd damn certification. I want to, like I've always wanted to be Associate Business Continuity Professional (ABCP) Certified. I hope I can, I will try to be. Om Ah Ra Pa Tsa Na Dhi. May I be bestowed with wisdom and mind clarity to pass this assessment.
Therefore, I don't think it is good time to dream yet. Life has it's time for reality, and this coming week definitely requires it. I have the blessing. All I gotta do is make it happen.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
last day of November 2011
So fast it's Wednesday already. And now, the end of Wednesday is fast approaching. There goes the last day of November 2011. Tomorrow will be the last month in 2011. Then gawd knows what happens next year...I wish you can hear me sigh now..~~~~~~
Daddy must be getting ready to board the flight to Japan. I'm happy for him. He always wanted to visit Japan; with Mom in fact. But no one knows what Mom must be thinking. She just refused, irregardless. But I'm convinced that they are both old enough (yes, very old indeed) to decide where and when to go places. I just wish a safe and enjoyable journey to Daddy, and may Guardian Angels be with him all the time. Miss you, Daddy...and come home in pinky health soon. Don't forget my Issey Miyake!
My mindfulness have been quite bad lately. I couldn't recall some of those things that matters to me. I always find myself writing notes on pieces of paper. Or using MyNote at htc to help me remember better. Like moment ago, I was searching high and low for my laptop adaptor. Gawd knows where was it. Downstairs, under the aquarium. I must have left it there when I used the laptop at the living room last ..... week. Yes, I forgot matters that just happened a week ago. And I'm not even 30 yet. Not so soon, at least.
Let's talk about age. I have been thinking what 30 should mean to me, personally. I don't know, I couldn't find a clue. Everythings seems to be changing each day, but I don't feel time flies. People around me still positively (and somehow unpleasant at times) impacting my living the same ol' way they did ten years back. I am still ME...except for a few fine lines erupting from the corner of my eyes. But am counting my blessing as I have accumulated those smiling lines too. I have been good. Not too bad. And that's it!?!? That's my 30 years passed? What about buying my own home and move out? What about get tie the knot like how most of friends my age does? Or what not...experience the wonders (and joys?) of pregnancy? Uh-Uhhh...No ...Hold me back. My imagination is sucking me to a grey anatomy deep in my mind.
If things are meant to be, it will eventually happen. At 30, I am no longer asking 'why'. I'd rather contemplate 'how'. Now I need a man whom can lead me to accomplish the 'how' direction. Why a man? I don't know and I never ask.
Daddy must be getting ready to board the flight to Japan. I'm happy for him. He always wanted to visit Japan; with Mom in fact. But no one knows what Mom must be thinking. She just refused, irregardless. But I'm convinced that they are both old enough (yes, very old indeed) to decide where and when to go places. I just wish a safe and enjoyable journey to Daddy, and may Guardian Angels be with him all the time. Miss you, Daddy...and come home in pinky health soon. Don't forget my Issey Miyake!
My mindfulness have been quite bad lately. I couldn't recall some of those things that matters to me. I always find myself writing notes on pieces of paper. Or using MyNote at htc to help me remember better. Like moment ago, I was searching high and low for my laptop adaptor. Gawd knows where was it. Downstairs, under the aquarium. I must have left it there when I used the laptop at the living room last ..... week. Yes, I forgot matters that just happened a week ago. And I'm not even 30 yet. Not so soon, at least.
Let's talk about age. I have been thinking what 30 should mean to me, personally. I don't know, I couldn't find a clue. Everythings seems to be changing each day, but I don't feel time flies. People around me still positively (and somehow unpleasant at times) impacting my living the same ol' way they did ten years back. I am still ME...except for a few fine lines erupting from the corner of my eyes. But am counting my blessing as I have accumulated those smiling lines too. I have been good. Not too bad. And that's it!?!? That's my 30 years passed? What about buying my own home and move out? What about get tie the knot like how most of friends my age does? Or what not...experience the wonders (and joys?) of pregnancy? Uh-Uhhh...No ...Hold me back. My imagination is sucking me to a grey anatomy deep in my mind.
If things are meant to be, it will eventually happen. At 30, I am no longer asking 'why'. I'd rather contemplate 'how'. Now I need a man whom can lead me to accomplish the 'how' direction. Why a man? I don't know and I never ask.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
I've got so.. "Drifted" away
I know what people say about car drifting. I know there would be (at least) a car, cute hunks and sexy babes. And blasting music that could deafen your ears but clear vision guaranteed. I know Fast & Furious. I know Initial D....I know I know...
But have I drifted? Noooo way...! I don't play games on the road. I can opt for Bungee Jump. I can have a roller coaster non stop. Or extreme reverse bungee...sounds good sounds good....but car DRIFT? urrghhh...
Ok, the car I was travelling in skidded, almost plunged (of course it didn't, I said ALMOST) it was so near. I don't know what happened, seriously. The car just lost control, and the next second I'm seeing cars coming right in front of me. No no no...it was not a two-way traffic. I see car coming forward because my car had made a nice 360 degrees turn. That, I call DRIFT....
I had mild traumatic concussion. Like I always will. I had headache, stiff neck and shoulder and nausea. Great. I survived!
I should count my blessing. Guardian Angel must have protected me in that split moment. Or did I just cheated death..? =S
I don't know. Too much to think. It was freaky, but LIFE goes on.
But have I drifted? Noooo way...! I don't play games on the road. I can opt for Bungee Jump. I can have a roller coaster non stop. Or extreme reverse bungee...sounds good sounds good....but car DRIFT? urrghhh...
Ok, the car I was travelling in skidded, almost plunged (of course it didn't, I said ALMOST) it was so near. I don't know what happened, seriously. The car just lost control, and the next second I'm seeing cars coming right in front of me. No no no...it was not a two-way traffic. I see car coming forward because my car had made a nice 360 degrees turn. That, I call DRIFT....
I had mild traumatic concussion. Like I always will. I had headache, stiff neck and shoulder and nausea. Great. I survived!
I should count my blessing. Guardian Angel must have protected me in that split moment. Or did I just cheated death..? =S
I don't know. Too much to think. It was freaky, but LIFE goes on.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Bon Voyage, sweetie...
So, Dad and Mom are travelling miles to Australia now. A family trip consists of bags...Eldest Aunty, Fourth Aunty, Fifth Aunty, Cousin's family. Yea, don't sound very enticing for hot blood adults like me. I don't find a farm getaway fascinating. I'm not thrilled to see cows, or kangaroos or koala. Well, koala maybe. But not anything other than this fury huggies.
Of course, I'd prayed for their happy and safe journey along the way. Hope they all coordinate well there, and wish Daddy would enjoy himself too. He sorta complaint about this holiday, citing he's lazy to drive around at Perth. Ya...bags don't drive. But too late....he's gotta take it for Mom's sake.
Lucky I'd planned for another trip specially tailored for him end of this year. A trip so chillaxing that only food and lots of massages comes to mind. Yes, Bangkok! Ok ok...I cannot afford an Aussie's package, but at least I made Dad excited with a simple yet meaningful Asia sensation.
But anyway...I'm missing them now. It's good to have them nagging me about not nagging me enough....and I want my gift from Australia !!!!!!! I will look forward to 21st October 2011 so that I can nag them about missing them nagging me.
Love you, bags.
Of course, I'd prayed for their happy and safe journey along the way. Hope they all coordinate well there, and wish Daddy would enjoy himself too. He sorta complaint about this holiday, citing he's lazy to drive around at Perth. Ya...bags don't drive. But too late....he's gotta take it for Mom's sake.
Lucky I'd planned for another trip specially tailored for him end of this year. A trip so chillaxing that only food and lots of massages comes to mind. Yes, Bangkok! Ok ok...I cannot afford an Aussie's package, but at least I made Dad excited with a simple yet meaningful Asia sensation.
But anyway...I'm missing them now. It's good to have them nagging me about not nagging me enough....and I want my gift from Australia !!!!!!! I will look forward to 21st October 2011 so that I can nag them about missing them nagging me.
Love you, bags.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Pang Yau!
It was ages ago since I last saw her! I couldn't recall when was the last time we were hanging out together. In fact, we did hang out and it was oh-so-fun!
See...this gal went to Jacky Cheung concert with me. If that was not cool enough, we went to mountain people mountain sea watching English boy-band 911 at Sunway Pyramid. And that was 10 years ago. Yes, a century ago. Gosh, 10 f**king years!!
Ho Chieh Ern! Pang Yau! That's how we addressed each other. And we still do today. I would call her full name, and she would call me Ho 'Pung' Yen. And we both like to call Jules as Lee 'Ham' Peng. and then we giggle together. Jesus, so much to write. If I were to continue, how long would this page be.
Oh yeah yeah...this is classic. We used to boil telephone porridge for more than 3 hours after school, just chatting about Prince Williams. Yeah, Kate's hubby. As if we didn't have enough time chatting at school, we continued at respective home. And Mom proudly thought her daughter was doing homework revision with friend over the phone. What else....hmmm....also those endless McD session after prefectorial meetings! Jusco Maluri McD! I miss that place. I miss that life!
There will be some catching up to do with her. She need a friend, like all of us do. And I hope to be able to care for her, just like how we did. No matter how stressful and grey she thinks life is now, I hope she wouldn't give up. She is a nice girl. Nice girls should have a nice life....Guardian Angels, spend more time on her...
Metta
See...this gal went to Jacky Cheung concert with me. If that was not cool enough, we went to mountain people mountain sea watching English boy-band 911 at Sunway Pyramid. And that was 10 years ago. Yes, a century ago. Gosh, 10 f**king years!!
Ho Chieh Ern! Pang Yau! That's how we addressed each other. And we still do today. I would call her full name, and she would call me Ho 'Pung' Yen. And we both like to call Jules as Lee 'Ham' Peng. and then we giggle together. Jesus, so much to write. If I were to continue, how long would this page be.
Oh yeah yeah...this is classic. We used to boil telephone porridge for more than 3 hours after school, just chatting about Prince Williams. Yeah, Kate's hubby. As if we didn't have enough time chatting at school, we continued at respective home. And Mom proudly thought her daughter was doing homework revision with friend over the phone. What else....hmmm....also those endless McD session after prefectorial meetings! Jusco Maluri McD! I miss that place. I miss that life!
There will be some catching up to do with her. She need a friend, like all of us do. And I hope to be able to care for her, just like how we did. No matter how stressful and grey she thinks life is now, I hope she wouldn't give up. She is a nice girl. Nice girls should have a nice life....Guardian Angels, spend more time on her...
Metta
Sunday, February 20, 2011
18th February of 2011
Loads of well wishes from friends or acquaintances were tagged to me at Facebook. A few close buddies even text-ed me directly to my phone, making the bonds much sweeter and of course, closer. Family members called, saying this should be the last birthday celebration away from home. The fact that I didn't spend my birthday at home for 2 years, startled me.
Time goes THAT fast??? Yes, admit it YennyHO...you are at your last twenties. And the BIG-3 is coming in. Boo-Hoo...
Despite all great lines of "Have a blast on your Bday" or "Enjoy your day to the max!" kind of wishes, I was practically and realistically spending my Birthday-29 at home. To be precise, on the bed. Alone.
Down with throat inflammation and fever, doctor gave me a day of MC with much mercy. Urrghh...medicine again...but in order to recover asap, I've got to take the call. Or else, suffer the pain - NO WAY!
I still got my birthday cake, and blown the candles away. Muuk got a rectangle shaped (so odd!) chocolate cake over...and I chocked myself happily with it. Earlier, all I had was pancake with syrup and congee. It was only complete when I got that choco on my tastebuds again! I love d cake ! And love u too, Muuk ! You made my (helpless) birthday special again !
And JoyceHO told me Dad's eyesight needs a specialist's attention too. Dad is seeing sparks of line whenever he's in a dark room/place. When JoyceHO replied saying nothing is too scary...it took my worries away. Will follow up on this when I get home soon.
Well...there goes the special day. And deep in my heart...every birthday reminds me of the labor pain Mom had gone through for me. And for that, I should thank her instead, she should deserve the Happy Birthday wishes much more than I should. Love U SinMee...
Time goes THAT fast??? Yes, admit it YennyHO...you are at your last twenties. And the BIG-3 is coming in. Boo-Hoo...
Despite all great lines of "Have a blast on your Bday" or "Enjoy your day to the max!" kind of wishes, I was practically and realistically spending my Birthday-29 at home. To be precise, on the bed. Alone.
Down with throat inflammation and fever, doctor gave me a day of MC with much mercy. Urrghh...medicine again...but in order to recover asap, I've got to take the call. Or else, suffer the pain - NO WAY!
I still got my birthday cake, and blown the candles away. Muuk got a rectangle shaped (so odd!) chocolate cake over...and I chocked myself happily with it. Earlier, all I had was pancake with syrup and congee. It was only complete when I got that choco on my tastebuds again! I love d cake ! And love u too, Muuk ! You made my (helpless) birthday special again !
And JoyceHO told me Dad's eyesight needs a specialist's attention too. Dad is seeing sparks of line whenever he's in a dark room/place. When JoyceHO replied saying nothing is too scary...it took my worries away. Will follow up on this when I get home soon.
Well...there goes the special day. And deep in my heart...every birthday reminds me of the labor pain Mom had gone through for me. And for that, I should thank her instead, she should deserve the Happy Birthday wishes much more than I should. Love U SinMee...
Thursday, January 20, 2011
SuperDad's dream come true
I was HOME safely, utmost appreciation and thankfulness to all well wishes and blessings from the Triple Gems.....Thanks Buddha, the Guardian Angel.
I am not only HOME. I will be blessed with the ability to make Dad's dream come true tomorrow. A family trip to Hong Kong for Chinese New Year shopping.
All necessities, check. Pinky health, check. Family bond, check.
Time do pass very quickly when happiness is evolving. But it's worth the wait.
I am not only HOME. I will be blessed with the ability to make Dad's dream come true tomorrow. A family trip to Hong Kong for Chinese New Year shopping.
All necessities, check. Pinky health, check. Family bond, check.
Time do pass very quickly when happiness is evolving. But it's worth the wait.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
my child-like SuperParents
Dad Mom made me worried today. Dad told me he is not in good shape via skype, and it scared the hell out of me.
Our family favorite, home-cooked yong tau foo cracked a bad joke with Dad last Tuesday. Mom used fresh fish mixed with grounded pork as the yong tau foo paste. And she didn't ground the pork herself, she got it from the market. And so, the pork were certainly not grounded very well, and a small sharp piece of porky bone were left unseen. Dad must be eating greedily, and chewed too fast. That damn porky bone landed between his tooth and gum. The shock left his gum to loosen grip of the tooth, but that is not the worst yet. Blood were rushing out like volcanic eruption, and Carol was traumatized by it. Well, maybe almost traumatized.
Hmm...Dad was rushed to the dentist. The dentist treated him properly, and some follow ups are required. Impact is, Dad might loose his tooth. His well guarded property for so many years...he begged the dentist to "keep" his tooth intact anyway possible. Just like a kid telling mommy he doesn't want to take medicine unless given a candy.
And my queen Mommy....is down with flu + cough + sore throat for almost 10 days already. And yet, she cautioned Joyce not to tell me, afraid that I might worry about her unnecessarily. Now I know about it, and yes, I am worried. But it is totally necessary. You see, there have been many cases of mutated flu/cold viruses lately. It's a global thingy. Maybe the weather changed and thus mutated the viral activities. Or it's just part of human advancements that pushes viruses and bugs to advance too. But whoever that has those symptoms for more than 5 days, not curable by medicines of norm -- must get further checks by specialists. And so do Mom..!
I knew about it when I called home to ask her about Dad. Cos Dad was just skype-ing me, and I didn't get full details from him. Once she picked the call, she didn't stop coughing. And yet, she reassured me that she is OK. Yeah...rite. She thinks she's a 3 year old telling Mommy it wasn't her stealing candies from the fridge.
At this point of time, I realized two major cross-overs in my life (at current stage):
1. I finally understand why would I make my parents upset and worry about me whenever I am not doing as they told. Insecurities and inability to take control over the safety of a loved one is worrying. They want the best for me, and they worry that I am not getting the best. Just the same feeling I have now. They are not in good shape, and I am not having control over ensuring that they get the best attention. And thus, I am worried. And the more I worry about them, and still not able to do anything about it...I get upset too.
2. Parents, as they age...are just like kids. They spent their whole life thinking they get good hold of every situation within the family like providing the necessities to me, nurturing me...give it all. Little did they know, they do cross path one day, when they should sit down and relax. Cos it's my turn to ensure they are taken good care of. To shield them from vulnerabilities, and assure them that they are as precious & magical like how I was to them.
Dad manja me again just now. He insisted to hear my voice before going to bed, and sms-ed me to call him after work. I was in a middle of moronic meeting, but once I saw that message, I called the meeting off. I told the morons to go home, take a shower, call your loved ones, and be back to work tomorrow & submit a damn process charting then. I want to call it a day. Cos I have someone waiting for me to wish him good nite, sweet dreams, sleep tight & metta.........
Our family favorite, home-cooked yong tau foo cracked a bad joke with Dad last Tuesday. Mom used fresh fish mixed with grounded pork as the yong tau foo paste. And she didn't ground the pork herself, she got it from the market. And so, the pork were certainly not grounded very well, and a small sharp piece of porky bone were left unseen. Dad must be eating greedily, and chewed too fast. That damn porky bone landed between his tooth and gum. The shock left his gum to loosen grip of the tooth, but that is not the worst yet. Blood were rushing out like volcanic eruption, and Carol was traumatized by it. Well, maybe almost traumatized.
Hmm...Dad was rushed to the dentist. The dentist treated him properly, and some follow ups are required. Impact is, Dad might loose his tooth. His well guarded property for so many years...he begged the dentist to "keep" his tooth intact anyway possible. Just like a kid telling mommy he doesn't want to take medicine unless given a candy.
And my queen Mommy....is down with flu + cough + sore throat for almost 10 days already. And yet, she cautioned Joyce not to tell me, afraid that I might worry about her unnecessarily. Now I know about it, and yes, I am worried. But it is totally necessary. You see, there have been many cases of mutated flu/cold viruses lately. It's a global thingy. Maybe the weather changed and thus mutated the viral activities. Or it's just part of human advancements that pushes viruses and bugs to advance too. But whoever that has those symptoms for more than 5 days, not curable by medicines of norm -- must get further checks by specialists. And so do Mom..!
I knew about it when I called home to ask her about Dad. Cos Dad was just skype-ing me, and I didn't get full details from him. Once she picked the call, she didn't stop coughing. And yet, she reassured me that she is OK. Yeah...rite. She thinks she's a 3 year old telling Mommy it wasn't her stealing candies from the fridge.
At this point of time, I realized two major cross-overs in my life (at current stage):
1. I finally understand why would I make my parents upset and worry about me whenever I am not doing as they told. Insecurities and inability to take control over the safety of a loved one is worrying. They want the best for me, and they worry that I am not getting the best. Just the same feeling I have now. They are not in good shape, and I am not having control over ensuring that they get the best attention. And thus, I am worried. And the more I worry about them, and still not able to do anything about it...I get upset too.
2. Parents, as they age...are just like kids. They spent their whole life thinking they get good hold of every situation within the family like providing the necessities to me, nurturing me...give it all. Little did they know, they do cross path one day, when they should sit down and relax. Cos it's my turn to ensure they are taken good care of. To shield them from vulnerabilities, and assure them that they are as precious & magical like how I was to them.
Dad manja me again just now. He insisted to hear my voice before going to bed, and sms-ed me to call him after work. I was in a middle of moronic meeting, but once I saw that message, I called the meeting off. I told the morons to go home, take a shower, call your loved ones, and be back to work tomorrow & submit a damn process charting then. I want to call it a day. Cos I have someone waiting for me to wish him good nite, sweet dreams, sleep tight & metta.........
Thursday, December 2, 2010
finally finalizing!
I didn't like to make decision without any careful (I mean so careful that it takes lots of time for it) consideration. It took me months to think things out, and with my heart crossed, I've finally come to a solution; which pleases everybody I loved dearly. Including myself.
Initiated and finalized a mutual agreement which resulted in a win-win situation (hopefully) with my boss last Monday. Got consent from SuperMom and SuperDad on my return to MNL for serving of resignation purpose. All's Well, Ends Well!
Date of resignation : 15 Jan 2011
Hong Kong Family Trip : 20 Jan - 26 Jan 2011
CNY @ Home : 27 Jan - 7 Feb 2011
Last resignation notice served : 25 Feb 2011
HOME SWEET HOME : 26 FEB 2011 onwards
Pheeewwww.....sign of relief! There goes my self-enrichment journey at Manila. It will come to an end, and it ends on February 2011.
Dad Mom was so afraid that I am tricking them with that Boy Cries Wolf story again. They were so upset when I told them I would return to MNL in Feb (eventho it's only 3 weeks). I re-assured them that there won't be anymore turning back this time. I am serious, my boss is serious, and I will be back.
God Bless. Metta.
Initiated and finalized a mutual agreement which resulted in a win-win situation (hopefully) with my boss last Monday. Got consent from SuperMom and SuperDad on my return to MNL for serving of resignation purpose. All's Well, Ends Well!
Date of resignation : 15 Jan 2011
Hong Kong Family Trip : 20 Jan - 26 Jan 2011
CNY @ Home : 27 Jan - 7 Feb 2011
Last resignation notice served : 25 Feb 2011
HOME SWEET HOME : 26 FEB 2011 onwards
Pheeewwww.....sign of relief! There goes my self-enrichment journey at Manila. It will come to an end, and it ends on February 2011.
Dad Mom was so afraid that I am tricking them with that Boy Cries Wolf story again. They were so upset when I told them I would return to MNL in Feb (eventho it's only 3 weeks). I re-assured them that there won't be anymore turning back this time. I am serious, my boss is serious, and I will be back.
God Bless. Metta.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
checking in~ Easton Place
There goes my 2 weeks excitement and thrilling encounters at home. As said, I have had my blessings from the Triple Gems, and the Guardian Angels have been very very kind and loving to me, my family and friends...
Of course, I have a number of subjects to update here at my personal space. But coming back to Manila feels like a big big hangover~ I don't know why. Let me get over with this restlessness, so I can fill up my pages with some very very touching and close to hearts encounters way back HOME.
and yes, I will be HOME soon.
Of course, I have a number of subjects to update here at my personal space. But coming back to Manila feels like a big big hangover~ I don't know why. Let me get over with this restlessness, so I can fill up my pages with some very very touching and close to hearts encounters way back HOME.
and yes, I will be HOME soon.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
I've got my blessings!
It has been almost 24 hours since I'm home. I've seen SuperDad n SuperMom...so pinky health, still as naggy...still so SUPER. I spoke to Bro, it was a little awkward, but heaven knows how much efforts I've given in. Soon Family is doing very well too. Joyce got a better secured job and Wilson will be promoted. Wayne, still naughty but still in one piece. Leo..I don't understand why this toy poodle isn't toy anymore. He's growing bigger and the jumpsuit I bought him, nearly couldn't fit!
Overall...I know Guardian Angels have been keeping an eye (or both) on my Family. That's why I learned about contentment today. I feel so blessed while having them around me, and I know this is called true happiness.
Overall...I know Guardian Angels have been keeping an eye (or both) on my Family. That's why I learned about contentment today. I feel so blessed while having them around me, and I know this is called true happiness.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
here comes HOME!
There...there....I have been busy as a bee; free like a bird. I have hated enough to make me lost control and I have loved so much it felt angelic. I have cursed enough, but could still remember the importance of a good pat on the back.
Many scenarios happened, many feelings remixed. All these that happened at Makati are gonna wrap up for awhile now, because Yenny is leaving you -- to be HOME!
A loud loud arrrgggghhhhh.......I AM FINALLY HOME!!! is what you people at 27 Jln Jaya 3A gonna hear!
It will be so much fun. So much love.
Many scenarios happened, many feelings remixed. All these that happened at Makati are gonna wrap up for awhile now, because Yenny is leaving you -- to be HOME!
A loud loud arrrgggghhhhh.......I AM FINALLY HOME!!! is what you people at 27 Jln Jaya 3A gonna hear!
It will be so much fun. So much love.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Sept better be coming fast !
Things that I'm thinking of doing ... I'm thinking so badly ...
1. I want to see my SuperDad and SuperMom in real person. No more skype. No more international calls. No more sms.
2. I want to be really part of the family and help around for Bro's wedding preparations. I want to be so busy and happy doing it, and enjoy the day when I can meet with so many 2-ma-ku-jeh 3-ku-6-poh whom I haven't met in ages.
3. I want to see Carol in her wedding gown, and then in Mom's red chinese traditional wedding kua. I've dreamed of wearing it, but fate decides Carol's first. No problem, I'm equally thrilled.
4. I want to really sit down and chat my heart out with Sherine Chin Oi Lian. I bloody miss her. In fact, I missed out so many things about her. Her bridal gowns selection, then the ROM, then the photo shooting. We should really get our ass stuck on the couch .. and talk.
5. I want to eat all sorts desserts that I loved. And then only followed by other indulging food which my stomach growls only by thinking about it.
I just want to be home so much actually. It doesn't really matter if I can't do all the things I'd wanted to do...but I'd better be home soon. I'm getting out of my mind if this continues...
Guardian Angel, bring me home, safely. They want the full package of me !
1. I want to see my SuperDad and SuperMom in real person. No more skype. No more international calls. No more sms.
2. I want to be really part of the family and help around for Bro's wedding preparations. I want to be so busy and happy doing it, and enjoy the day when I can meet with so many 2-ma-ku-jeh 3-ku-6-poh whom I haven't met in ages.
3. I want to see Carol in her wedding gown, and then in Mom's red chinese traditional wedding kua. I've dreamed of wearing it, but fate decides Carol's first. No problem, I'm equally thrilled.
4. I want to really sit down and chat my heart out with Sherine Chin Oi Lian. I bloody miss her. In fact, I missed out so many things about her. Her bridal gowns selection, then the ROM, then the photo shooting. We should really get our ass stuck on the couch .. and talk.
5. I want to eat all sorts desserts that I loved. And then only followed by other indulging food which my stomach growls only by thinking about it.
I just want to be home so much actually. It doesn't really matter if I can't do all the things I'd wanted to do...but I'd better be home soon. I'm getting out of my mind if this continues...
Guardian Angel, bring me home, safely. They want the full package of me !
Friday, May 28, 2010
what a thr33some!
1. Wesak Day
It's Wesak Day today. I had no single idea that it's a BIG day for all Buddhist today. Working abroad, especially when in a Christianity dominant country, can really swipe away many sorts of important calendar days from me. Well, of course I'm nothing to a devoted Buddhist (but hey, I've taken refuge to the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha....and I'm Sunetra)...but I'd still miss those Wesak celebrations way back home. A night before the full moon, many Buddhists would gather at temples and pay homage to the Buddha, listen to Dharma talks, pay respects to all Sangha, and of course have some fun time with fellow Buddhists. There will be lots of lights, flowers, offerings and carnivals on the streets too! Let all sing joys to our great Enlighten One, his Dharma and Sangha...may there be love if not peace among all beings. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu.
2. I bumped the corner of my left eye to a chair, and my contact lens clashed into 3 pieces in my very eyes. I could have been a pirate from the Caribbean, if unlucky. I rushed to the toilet, and let the running water flooded my whole eye for as long as I could. Gosh, I was worry sick. Now, there's slight bruise at the corner, and I prayed hard that there isn't any single piece of broken contact lens left in my eye. I kept on blinking my eye, hoping the motion would signal me should there are any foreign objects left inside. I think it's ok cos till now, there's no pain nor redness in my eye. Hope it's alright.
3. Some painters and workmen starts their renovation work at HOME today. Dad didn't have to take leave to stay HOME with Mom as today's a public holiday. But I couldn't help but called HOME, mostly because I want to be nosy about how works going on at HOME. Dad says he's getting the plaster ceiling done at the living room, and get new coat of paint all around the house. To get ready to celebrate Bro's wedding in September 2010. The whole project will take a week's time, and after that plumbers will do their job, and after which some wire-men will move in to do new lighting, air-con and visual & sound system. Phew~~~what hassle. All because Mr Ho Jr is getting married. Lucky he got a good wife, if not he'd better be paying for all those expenses...lolx! From the call, I could hear LEO barking, begging to be released. Mom must have leashed him afraid he would do any circus shows in front of those Indo workers. Bet those Indo want to cook him for dinner. Naughty LEO. And I MISS HOME. I really do. Mother Fairy please make my days here in Makati to move faster than 60 minutes per hour, so I can be HOME earlier. And when I'm HOME, please adjust it to be 90 minutes per hour....or slower...ka-ching!
It's Wesak Day today. I had no single idea that it's a BIG day for all Buddhist today. Working abroad, especially when in a Christianity dominant country, can really swipe away many sorts of important calendar days from me. Well, of course I'm nothing to a devoted Buddhist (but hey, I've taken refuge to the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha....and I'm Sunetra)...but I'd still miss those Wesak celebrations way back home. A night before the full moon, many Buddhists would gather at temples and pay homage to the Buddha, listen to Dharma talks, pay respects to all Sangha, and of course have some fun time with fellow Buddhists. There will be lots of lights, flowers, offerings and carnivals on the streets too! Let all sing joys to our great Enlighten One, his Dharma and Sangha...may there be love if not peace among all beings. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu.
2. I bumped the corner of my left eye to a chair, and my contact lens clashed into 3 pieces in my very eyes. I could have been a pirate from the Caribbean, if unlucky. I rushed to the toilet, and let the running water flooded my whole eye for as long as I could. Gosh, I was worry sick. Now, there's slight bruise at the corner, and I prayed hard that there isn't any single piece of broken contact lens left in my eye. I kept on blinking my eye, hoping the motion would signal me should there are any foreign objects left inside. I think it's ok cos till now, there's no pain nor redness in my eye. Hope it's alright.
3. Some painters and workmen starts their renovation work at HOME today. Dad didn't have to take leave to stay HOME with Mom as today's a public holiday. But I couldn't help but called HOME, mostly because I want to be nosy about how works going on at HOME. Dad says he's getting the plaster ceiling done at the living room, and get new coat of paint all around the house. To get ready to celebrate Bro's wedding in September 2010. The whole project will take a week's time, and after that plumbers will do their job, and after which some wire-men will move in to do new lighting, air-con and visual & sound system. Phew~~~what hassle. All because Mr Ho Jr is getting married. Lucky he got a good wife, if not he'd better be paying for all those expenses...lolx! From the call, I could hear LEO barking, begging to be released. Mom must have leashed him afraid he would do any circus shows in front of those Indo workers. Bet those Indo want to cook him for dinner. Naughty LEO. And I MISS HOME. I really do. Mother Fairy please make my days here in Makati to move faster than 60 minutes per hour, so I can be HOME earlier. And when I'm HOME, please adjust it to be 90 minutes per hour....or slower...ka-ching!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I'm down by 3...2...1...
It is always the loneliest moment at night, I wonder why. Maybe during the day, there are countless distractions coming over you - bustling city with so much of noise pollutions around, maid singing as if she's Mariah Carey, phone's beeping signaling someone's trying to locate you and all all sorts of stuffs. Like now, I can even hear myself breathing. My mind has been playing games with me lately, feeling lethargic in the day, but so awake like an owl at night. I read a piece of article at msn just now, these are signs of depression. Wow, I'm depressed. No wonder I caught myself crying while I'm doing this....and I can't find the reason why. Are depressed people often get absent-minded as well?
Gosh, this is even more difficult than deciding to leave Home for Makati. This is suffocating. This is insane. This is about a directionless me. This is insecurity and vulnerability. This is sickening. This is depression.
I need help. Or maybe some insights. Or maybe just plain luck - good luck. I need Your blessings, Guardian Angel.
Gosh, this is even more difficult than deciding to leave Home for Makati. This is suffocating. This is insane. This is about a directionless me. This is insecurity and vulnerability. This is sickening. This is depression.
I need help. Or maybe some insights. Or maybe just plain luck - good luck. I need Your blessings, Guardian Angel.
Monday, August 24, 2009
The Chant of Metta ~ with love
Metta is a Pali word meaning loving-kindness. Metta chanting is the radiation of loving-kindness towards all beings: May they all be happy and peaceful. Imee Ooi chants the Pali beautifully. Metta chanting is soothing, uplifting, joyful and a great healing for the world - pervading it with waves of love. Truly, may all beings be happy. May they live always in peace and harmony.
The Chant of Metta
Aham avero homi
May I be free from enmity and danger
abyapajjho homi
May I be free from mental suffering
anigha homi
May I be free from physical suffering
sukhi - attanam pariharami
May I take care of myself happily
Mama matapitu
May my parents
acariya ca natimitta ca
teacher relatives and friends
sabrahma - carino ca
fellow Dhamma farers
avera hontu
be free from enmity and danger
abyapajjha hontu
be free from mental suffering
anigha hontu
be free from physical suffering
sukhi - attanam pariharantu
may they take care of themselves happily
Imasmim arame sabbe yogino
May all meditators in this compound
avera hontu
be free from enmity and danger
abyapajjha hontu
be free from mental suffering
anigha hontu
be free from physical suffering
sukhi - attanam pariharantu
May they take care of themselves happily
Imasmim arame sabbe bhikkhu
May all monks in this compound
samanera ca
novice monks
upasaka - upasikaya ca
laymen and laywomen disciples
avera hontu
be free from enmity and danger
abyapajjha hontu
be free from mental suffering
anigha hontu
be free from physical suffering
sukhi - attanam pariharantu
May they take care of themselves happily
Amhakam catupaccaya - dayaka
May our donors of the four supports: clothing, food, medicine and lodging
avera hontu
be free from enmity and danger
abyapajjha hontu
be free from mental suffering
anigha hontu
be free from physical suffering
sukhi - attanam pariharantu
May they take care of themselves happily
Amhakam arakkha devata
May our guardian devas
Ismasmim vihare
in this monastery
Ismasmim avase
in this dwelling
Ismasmim arame
in this compound
arakkha devata
May the guardian devas
avera hontu
be free from enmity and danger
abyapajjha hontu
be free from mental suffering
anigha hontu
be free from physical suffering
sukhi - attanam pariharantu
may they take care of themselves happily
Sabbe satta
May all beings
sabbe pana
all breathing things
sabbe bhutta
all creatures
sabbe puggala
all individuals (all beings)
sabbe attabhava - pariyapanna
all personalities (all beings with mind and body)
sabbe itthoyo
may all females
sabbe purisa
all males
sabbe ariya
all noble ones (saints)
sabbe anariya
all worldlings (those yet to attain sainthood)
sabbe deva
all devas (deities)
sabbe manussa
all humans
sabbe vinipatika
all those in the four woeful planes
avera hontu
be free from enmity and dangers
abyapajjha hontu
be free from mental suffering
anigha hontu
be free from physical suffering
sukhi - attanam pariharantu
may they take care of themselves happily
Dukkha muccantu
May all being be free from suffering
Yattha-laddha-sampattito mavigacchantu
May whatever they have gained not be lost
Kammassaka
All beings are owners of their own Kamma
Purathimaya disaya
in the eastern direction
pacchimaya disaya
in the western direction
uttara disaya
in the northern direction
dakkhinaya disaya
in the southern direction
purathimaya anudisaya
in the southeast direction
pacchimaya anudisaya
in the northwest direction
uttara anudisaya
in the northeast direction
dakkhinaya anudisaya
in the southwest direction
hetthimaya disaya
in the direction below
uparimaya disaya
in the direction above
Sabbe satta
May all beings
sabbe pana
all breathing things
sabbe bhutta
all creatures
sabbe puggala
all individuals (all beings)
sabbe attabhava - pariyapanna
all personalities (all beings with mind and body)
sabbe itthoyo
may all females
sabbe purisa
all males
sabbe ariya
all noble ones (saints)
sabbe anariya
(those yet to attain sainthood)
sabbe deva
all devas (deities)
sabbe manussa
all humans
sabbe vinipatika
all those in the 4 woeful planes
avera hontu
be free from enmity and dangers
abyapajjha hontu
be free from mental suffering
anigha hontu
be free from physical suffering
sukhi - attanam pariharantu
may they take care of themselves happily
Dukkha muccantu
May all beings be free from suffering
Yattha-laddha-sampattito mavigacchantu
May whatever they have gained not be lost
Kammassaka
All beings are owners of their own kamma
Uddham yava bhavagga ca
As far as the highest plane of existence
adho yava aviccito
to as far down as the lowest plane
samanta cakkavalesu
in the entire universe
ye satta pathavicara
whatever beings that move on earth
abyapajjha nivera ca
may they are free of mental suffering and enmity
nidukkha ca nupaddava
and from physical suffering and danger
Uddham yava bhavagga ca
As far as the highest plane of existence
adho yava aviccito
to as far down as the lowest plane
samanta cakkavalesu
in the entire universe
ye satta udakecara
whatever beings that move on water
abyapajjha nivera ca
may they are free of mental suffering and enmity
nidukkha ca nupaddava
and from physical suffering and danger
Uddham yava bhavagga ca
As far as the highest plane of existence
adho yava aviccito
to as far down as the lowest plane
samanta cakkavalesu
in the entire universe
ye satta akasecara
whatever beings that move in air
abyapajjha nivera ca
may they are free of mental suffering and enmity
nidukkha ca nupaddava
and from physical suffering and danger.
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