let's take 5!

This is MADNESS .. ! -- my favorite phrase of the month.

Surviving at work is madness. Putting up with hypocrites at work is madness. Producing low quality work to please low quality people is madness. Wasting my precious time stuck in the traffic is madness. Staying at home and BE a good daughter/sister is madness. Prolonged intake of prescribed drugs is madness. Going through unregistered pain is madness. All these, and many others are total madness...

Gosh, I am a complain freak. What have I become? Big-3 madness?!?!? FML This is madness.

I need a holiday. I can listen to Bruno's Lazy Song the whole day and hallucinate about it. I want to go somewhere...a cosmo city, or to the beach...just by myself. I wonder how would that feel. Maybe I might sound like a loner, but going solo can be soul refreshing at times. Because at this moment, I don't think anyone would want to keep up with a complain freak as travelling companion. And I don't need a travel companion to ignite my need to complain either. Purrrrfect!

But, above all..I am thankful that I am acknowledging this phase of life I am having now. I don't need to wonder why am I not happy at work. I don't need further explanation from the doctors why I am always not well. I can't be any happier that I have these loyal family members and friends ever ready to put up to my naggy nature. Some never give up on me, and I won't give up too.

So I'm on the roller coaster ride all these while. This is madness...

starry starry night...

As I gazed up the night sky, so many galactic stars! I looked away, and gazed again, they are still there. They are blinking telling me they won't leave me alone on a night like this. But I really wish they go away...dark gloomy skies filled with stars. Bad premonition, it shows you are...empty inside ( the dark gloomy part) ecstatic outsie ( those twinkies, what else?!?)

I blamed it on those medicines. I'm on drugs lately. Ohh yeah.. antibiotics, antivirus,anti inflammation,painkillers..you name it I've got it. I don't recall all kinds of sickness I have...uterus minor disallocation, chest congestion, skin psoriasis, slip disc at most recent..do I sound enough sicko already?

I don't care. There isn't anything that can practically scare the hell out of me anymore. Before this health issue, let's mention -- Car accidents I've got it too!! Voila, that makes me the most erm...Survived Jinx in da World? Thank u thank u..

Ageing is definitely not an issue either. I've just reached the big 3 in a simple, quiet, chillaxing way -- just the pefect way I wanted it. See?? I don't need celebrations too and I survived!!

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger -- who's who philosopher.

What doesn't kill you instantly makes you die a slower death -- Yennyho.

Life is too predictable when you reach a certain age. Unless you climb Mount Everest up and down everyday or eat maggots for fun...I can't find anything more amusingly exciting.

But, simplicity is true happiness. I may sound like a pessimist seeing the glass half empty, but I didn't complain why is the glass not full either. I may sound like suicidal having not much passion in life, but I don't need raging temper to keep life going on.

I am such because, as I gazed up the dark gloomy sky I see those stars. Main point is, i still have the time to push my chin up and look up high. There are so many out there, who seemed to have the most happening lifestlye, advancing career, delicious cash account, all that glitz & glamour -- had missed the chance to stop a little while, and enjoy the dark but meteoric skies. I didn't have all that yet, but i see stars. I see You.

Dont cross those borders

I do hate February. I don't understand why people cannot leave me alone this month. Yes yes so what this is birthday month. Don't you think I'm supposed granted with something I'd really want, instead of something you think I'd want??

I want peace. A peace of mind. Rather than challenge my patience and see if I could hold up to your hypocrisy. I don't need cakes and presents too. I want originality. Show me your real face and I'd thank you much.

Whatever it is, just stop bugging me. Stop pretend like you know me so well that you can add your personal views to my relationships, career or simply my well-being. To remind you, I'm an Aquarius, and therefore I don't need you to think I need to be reminded of things I can comprehend. An Aquarius can be a loner at times, only because she need more time for herself rather than squabbling with minorities like you.

So, don't give me a symphatetic look when I say get out of my line. I'm much better without certain things that doesn't add value to those beautiful things in my life.

Thanks.