July...August...September..!!!

It will be the last day of June 2010 tomorrow. Grrrrreeeeaaaat.....and this proves that July 2010 is approaching in high speed.

And by July, I will be as busy as a ermmm.... crazy bee. By early of the month, I will be damn busy with lots of reporting for Q2 management's view & presentation. I believe that will occupy 2 weeks away from July. Then just in between and along the way, the World Cup 2010 will draw to an end (yeah!finally!). And that's when load of assessments to do. Verification la, analysis la, reporting la, coordinating la....bla bla bla la....Voila, there goes my July 2010.

And just when August comes....who can't say it's daydreaming time all over again?!? I believe there will be a soul-less Yenny roaming around the office. And just if you tend to stop by my workstation to ask something, there will only be 1 perfecto answer : I AM GOING HOME SOON......SAFE N SOUND *blink blink*

到底什麼時候你才會想起我 (II)

有一個問號一直在困擾 卻又不知該如何是好 雖然明知道 你和他很好 真的不該再打擾. 就當我無聊 已無可救藥 只是真的我很想知道. 每次一想到 你把我忘掉 眼淚忍不住在狂飆...
到底什麼時候你才會想起我? 在夜闌人靜孤單來襲因為寂寞, 也許狂歡過後突然平淡而失落 還是我想的太多?
到底什麼時候你才會想起我? 在值得紀念時刻因為感觸太多, 當你匆匆經過我們走過的角落 你會偷偷想我....
還是一笑而過?

到底什麼時候你才會想起我...

=凤瑩=

Bad sleeping posture

I had very very very bad muscle cramps on my both legs yesterday. It was so painful that I took Paracetamol to reduce the pain. Only then I was able to walk, but my colleagues still commented that I look weird as I took every steps with utmost effort. I didn't bump onto anywhere prior to that and I'm very certain that it's not due to any of my irregular jogs - because I hardly hit the gym nowadays.

So after all thorough considerations, I blamed it on my bad sleeping posture. My bed is placed about 1 meter from the air-con and my feet is very near to it. I hated to get cold feet while sleeping so I bought a few pairs of comfy socks to keep warm. However, the socks aren't giving me enough comfort lately, as the weather turns cooler and dampness sets in.

Gosh, I must be curled in a furball position while sleeping which resulted to bad blood circulation - and therefore the muscle cramps.

I have just requested my maid to change the setting in my room. My room is not too spacious, so she was only able to help me change the bed's direction. Now, it's either I sleep facing the sliding door (balcony) or facing my room's door. I think I'd better sleep facing the sliding door.

With this new setting, my feet is no longer nearing the air-con. I hope this will not make me sleep in that furball position anymore....

Sleep Tight...Sweet Dreams

why do jerks get married?

I was checking some out-dated mails in my Yahoo...quickly browsing through the list of recipients while brutally deleting off some spam/junk/very old stuffs. As I pulled my mouse nearing to the bottom of the page, a very interesting topic caught my attention.

Got a message from a ol'friend - Hey, you are invited to my wedding reception! whao whao whao....don't get it wrong here. My first impression was; which unlucky woman on earth would have made such unlucky decision!?!??! Her vision must be -1000 with very serious astigmatism. She could even be deaf, doubting if she hasn't heard any "stories" about this guy before uttering I-DO.

Irregardless if his wifey has any impairment, I was dumb-founded.

All I know about this guy is - a moron with very bad drinking attitude. And when drunk, a womanizer. And while womanizing, gets fucked up at all times. Gosh, there was not a single good stuff I see in him, even though we were quite an itemized buddy at that time. Why we were buddies? Don't ask. I literally forgive and forget.

And so we lost contact as I moved on to another job. We still kept in touch during the Friendster era; but he hasn't changed a little. So the connections were erased when I moved forward to the FB space.

And yet, now, he sent me his wedding invitation and the link towards his "wedding blog" burpz....yucks!

I still have to write it here honestly (it's my own blog anyway) that I have very little confidence that his marriage will last. And if the marriage really ends by 2 years, it should be a good news to his wifey. It's never too late. Since the girl is only 24, she might just need to waste 2 years time to really know he's a jerk. Anytime more than that, helpless ~ maybe she's a jerk too. Two jerks makes perfect marriage. Hah!

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Well-oh-well....do I sound too nosy here? Yea, people's getting married, nothing to do with me. But back to the topic of this blog...I'm just wondering why am I always targeted to know about failed marriages? I mean, couldn't there be a reason that God showers me with more of happy-ever-after(s) so that I can be a little princess-at-heart too? Can I just have the urge to get married too? Just like you, you, and you.....out there....

Way back last year 2009, whenever I ever fantasized about my own marriage, me in a wedding gown, my own family...I could still feel hope. At least I was still looking forward to it...someday.

Now, I don't want to talk about it, not even think about it. Fairytale marriage does happen, but I don't want it to happen to me. Not because I don't believe in fairytale, because I don't believe in marriage.

And yes, I don't want children. I want a puppy instead. Hey you, got the hint...? (blink blink)

online gaming mortals!

Am getting bored with World Cup 2010 already. Those good teams doesn't play too well, and those not-so-good teams are great all of sudden. Phew~ wonder what's up with all this shit about soccer....

Well, even if my work has close relations to the World Cup; am trying my very best not to let it affect my daily life. I still go to bed once getting sleepy, irregardless who-vs-who later. As said earlier, it's really NO FUN when soccer evolves around your life 24/7. bangun bola, kerja bola, tidur bola, gila bola.....urrrggghhhh..~ so not me.

Anyway, good to hear that Mr. Vincent Tan got his first license to operate online gaming at Malaysia. Seems there's plenty of Malaysian friends looking forward to be home soon and still get a job as Online Betting Traders. Not surprised, as there are whole big bunch of people here accumulating wealth, but not knowing what sort of job to do if back home to own country. So, Mr Vincent: Do you want to be Jesus Christ here and save all Malaysian Online Betting Traders whom are currently working like mad cow at Manila? If yes, good news. There will be a Nobel Prize presented to you soon for being charitable LOLX

And another (bad) news for those problem gamblers out there in Malaysia - why don't you start counting down to days of losing your personal wealth; which inclusive of losing happy family bonds, too?

SuperMom n SuperDad

Received a sms from Joyce today. She has always been lack of skills in typing a good sms; she would use all sorts of unimaginable abbreviation that no one gets except her. So as I was trying to digest her text, it somehow make some sense that she's trying to tell me "Try to call mom at home and hp but nobody pick up. Worry. Call dad. Then call home again. Mom scold me"

Huh..?!?!?

Called Joyce immediately to find out what happened. Oh dear~ she was just trying to tell me - "I tried to call Mama at home and handphone. Cos I want to tell her that I have arranged a Father's Day dinner this Sunday. But no one pick the call, and I was worried so I called Papa instead. I tried to call again at home and Mama pick up the call at last. But out of nothing, Mama scolded me for being nosy"

Sigh....

I was relieved that nothing serious/bad had happened. Secondly, I chuckles knowing Mom's temper towards Joyce. For almost half decade had past between them, they are never at peace with each other. Mom always like to pick her faults, and is never patience in listening to her. Whereas Joyce, funnily strikes irritation and never learned a single lesson on best communication method with her sis-in-law. There goes, 2 dearest women in my life.

As I chatted with Dad this evening, Dad also noted on Mom's uncontrollable temper every time any matter arise due to Joyce. Even Joyce's intention is good, but Mom never seem pleased or satisfied...and surely find some tiny-weenie faults in her. Maybe Mom really enjoys doing this. lolx.

Dad even commented that Bro's bad temper and childishness could be developed from Mom's genes. But I told Dad; no...children should never ever blame any shortcomings on their parents. We must be able to control our emotions and if we ever loses temper...blame ourselves. Not our genes.

In fact, I want Mom to know, no matter how age is catching up on her, or how her temper changes due to ageing...I want her to know that I'm so ready to spend the rest of my life with her. And dad too. You have been the coolest Dad for me, and will still be my best friend forever...and ever. I won't give up on both of you no matter anything changes - your look, your temper, your health...you will still be SuperDad and SuperMom!

soccer is boring~

I finally know what is real boring - When you hear soccer at work, talk soccer at lunches/dinners, and watch soccer at home. It's worst when your career spells S.O.C.C.E.R.

I couldn't believe that I was watching soccer before I sleep, and once I wake up it's soccer again.

Not anyone dare to tell me I'll be in this for the rest of my life.

FIFA World Cup. South Africa. 2010

My first day, first time celebrating FIFA WORLD CUP away from home. Well, I've never really celebrated FIFA even when I was home, but at least that World Cup fever was dragged on with a bunch of well-known friends.

This time, not only I'm feeling the heat at Makati City Manila Philippines - I'm part of the team that escalates this World Cup fever to everybody around the world. I'm part of the Online Soccer Betting Executive Team. Sounds great? Sounds exclusive? Sounds like I'm having lots of fun?

Proves that I'm having great fun knowing who's dead and who's not-so-dead during the World Cup.

South Africa VS Mexico 1-1
South Africa defense like shit and Mexico plays like dumb.
But I won correct score. So, I'm not in the dead category yet.

I'm so......urrgggghhh...

Management reporting. Check. Adjustments Report. Check. Compliance. Charge-backs. Bets and Transactions. Check Check Check.

Incident Policy. Complaint Escalation Policy. Uh~Uh~....lazy.

I'm sooooooo down with flu bugs and lazy bugs this week. I'm soooooo sick and LAZY. I can't be staring at the flat boring screen all day. There must be something I must do. I don't understand why my lazy bugs always attacks when I'm most busy, when deadline's most dead. Urrhhhgggghhhh....

can't possibly write properly when I'm in such grouchy and grumpy mood. Something, or someone, and someday....need to cheer things UP!

礼物 - Gift

走一步又一步 我才发现转了个圈
走了好几年 又回到原点

Step by Step...just like days by days
I may have lost count of how many irreconcilable days we had
Realizing we had never moved forward anyway
We were never forwarded, in fact
It is just a vicious circle we are making
No beginning, no ending...

Days have evolved to years...
We are still so trapped in this merry-go-round of an unknown spiral
But in the end, it is only most hurtful knowing...
Knowing we are back to where we have started
The starting point where there will be no ending
and then it goes on again and again...

Whose time are we both wasting here?
Whose love are we both cheating here?
Whose fairytale are we both building here?

We have walked so far, both exhausted
That's why we both are ignoring the fact
Afraid that fact would made us more exhausted....

Love is in the air...for lovely "S"

Well, Sis Sherine's ROM just passed with lots of love & happiness...Didn't have much time to go through FB or her blog yet. But, I am ready to any excitement and all smiles knowing she is well taken care of and lovey-dovey all the way~!

And another "S"....yea Selina of S.H.E also openly broadcast her 3 years relationship with a long-gossip boyfriend Zhang Cheng Zhong. The guy actually confessed their relationship openly at SHE is the ONE Concert Taipei in end of May. Well, not easy-peasy for celebs nowadays to admit a relationship openly. Zhong even calls Selina 老婆; witnessed by H & E (and thousands of fans).. 老婆 is well-known SHE-language, where these 3-gals calls each other out of strong sisterly bond. Bravo, Zhong & Selina!!!

There...there....to my both best "S" --- Sherine & Selina:

Finding Love is a lifetime journey. Embracing Love is a lifetime achievement. Let Love Live! -yenny-

my seasonal sickness

I'm down with flu bugs attacking my immune system. I blamed it on the changing weather at Makati - it's getting cloudy, rainy and cool started since last week. I'm always sensitive to weather change...

I've got some kind of skin irritation that occurs year (which I have no idea what sort of medical name for it). I consulted a Skin Specialist in year 2008 when I first got the skin irritation. It started with a big patch of redness at (any) part of my body. Then it will turn itchy and dry. That, the Dr. call it the "Mother" of the disease, because once that thing comes it will "produce" lots of children all around my body. And strangely, it will not appear at any part of my revealing skins, i.e., face, neck, hands, and lower part of my legs. But it will look very bad at those crucial area like under my breast, all around my stomach and waist area, and on my thighs. so, this Skin Prob will only appear whenever it's time for a weather change. Meaning, just like the change of 4 seasons - Winter, Spring, Summer, Autumn. Just as these 4 seasons exchanges, that irritation occurs to me. So I asked the Dr. "I'm genetically an Asian and I lived in Malaysia my whole life. Why am I getting this skin problem which closely related to the changing weather?" and so the ol'man Dr. says..."According to my experience, this is a very rare skin irritation and out of 10 cases, 7 cases are happening to Asians. It's practically a genetic allergy contains in Asian skin cells" What!?!? Me?!?!?! Eyes rolling, and okay.....fine then....

And back to my condition now, I have seasonal flu too. I always get feverish and flu whenever the weather changes. Irregardless it's rainy, cold, hot, dry, damp...whatever. You name it. and I won't miss a few ahh--chiuuu every morning. Just a signal my body is telling my lazy mind --- WAKE UP BI*TCH...! lolx

I wonder how HOME looks like now

Daddy says the painting works and the plaster ceiling is almost done today. Tomorrow, the workmen will come to do some final touch-ups and ta-da... a new, brighter, nicer HOME! I think I've never been away from HOME whenever there's a make-over. But this time I missed so much of the transformation process. I even planned to give a new arrangement to my own room prior to Bro's big day, but Daddy says I'd better be HOME and speak to the designer myself when I get my (ass) back later. He knows the fussy me. Well, makes sense...cos I could hardly tell anyone what I have in mind now. Guess my room can't be transformed in time for the celebration day. I will try to make it prior to CNY 2011 though....So that when I'm finally HOME by Jan-2011 all things' new! Including my "nest" ^.^

I want my room to be painted in Lilac, or Lavender. I've always loved this color. Wonder if I'm able to make a good combination out of this favorite color with another soothing color....like Ivory...And I've always loved to have carpet in my room too. Those soft, plush textured and comfy type of carpet. There will be a section in my room covered with carpet where I can laze on it reading a book, or netting, or simply listening to great music. Oh yes, let's add spice by laying some big-hugging pillows on those carpets! And yes, just one more thing to make things complete. A full body length mirror. I don't want it hidden in the wardrobe type cos that's too erm...hideous. I want it to be just accessible, at one corner of my room. But I think this is slightly difficult to have, as Mom never liked to have mirrors in bedroom, due to some beliefs. But I will try to have this as well...

I wish I'm HOME now