am I pathetic...?

I escaped from my work at around 11-ish last Saturday, and headed straight back home. After having a few chats with friends, I couldn't helped but dozed off like ahem~ a pig. It was so pathetic. I didn't even have the energy to turn on the tv, or get hooked with FB, or finish off the new mag I bought, or even listen to some music before I sleep. Guess this work does absorbs off my energy like parasites sometimes.

But as I said, I'm glad that project is over; momentarily. Of course some new weird stuffs are gonna pop up sooner or later, even that's what forms the real meaning of work, you can never get to the end of it. My soul is definitely enjoying this kind of demanding work, because the busier I get, the faster time runs. And as faster time runs, you could have guessed what should happen next - September comes earlier, or so it seems. But well, my body is not collaborating too well with my mind this time....

Q: Ms.YennyBee, what did you do last Sunday../
A: SLEEP.
Q: No food..?drinks?entertainment...?anything in between...?
Q: Yeah, had whole-meal Deli breakfast on Sunday morning...back home for a short visit to the loo...and then, SLEEP again....

Yes, I was practically doing nothing else more significant than sleeping. I think I slept more than 20 hours since Saturday night till Sunday night - if my calculation is right; minus off those few minutes in between of getting-in food & water and getting-out food & water....

again...Pathetic...!

Today is much more meaningful. Headed to Glorietta4 cinema and enjoyed Iron-Man2. I didn't really liked the cinema at G4 as it is quite stuffy compared to that at Greenbelt's which is more posh and comfy. But never mind, enjoyed the movie. And after that we hit TGI Friday's and ordered Jack Daniel's Pork Ribs *yummy* and some kinda deep-fried dory fish....had full value meal with a great movie combo.

and NOW, I'm getting headaches. see...? it's so PATHETIC...!

my latest lover ~ DELL....

Gosh, it felt like battle today. I was stuck to my darling DELL for 10 hours non stop, assessing loads of data..information..calculations..policies..risk..summaries..reporting..If I didn't say, people must have thought I'm making love to my DELL. My eyes are so tired, that I took off my contact lenses right there at my workstation. Yeah, I didn't even have the time to walk to the washroom, wash my hands, dry it, and remove those contact lenses. I was practically too lazy to do all that, simply because I was so into that task.

And really...really thanks God that it's done now. Feels much lighter now removing a burden from my shoulders.

And in fact, I think I'm really falling in love with DELL...no one understands me more than this machine does...LOLX...!!!

enabler vs. enabling

It's been a tiring day at work today. There were lots of writing, talking, hearing and thinking. Well, maybe the thinking part is quite gray, because I always find my mind flying to never-land and back when my boss's half way talking - or was she blabbing..?!?

No matter whether today's been a fruitful day or not, two words suddenly strikes me in the middle of the meeting. Is this job an enabler for me to achieve something in the end of the day; or it's just enabling me to fulfill some of those empty spaces I have in me.

I know why I traveled all the way to Makati, Stellent Corp to work. I know it very clearly in my consciousness. But as I said in my previous blog that the feeling aren't the same anymore, I have forced myself to take this job as an enabler towards my certain goals and dreams. I want to believe that there are a certain "must" that I should do, because without it, it makes me un-able. Well..well...halfway through the transformation, this job funnily is turning into a force; enabling me to know what I'd really wanted all this while. It turns out into something I can have, and therefore I may have without.

Hence, I always feel a need for stronger force to keep me forward - just like today's agenda. It's enabling me to look at this job as an enabler. Usually when things come to this stake, it no longer look too promising and exciting. It feels like any regular job at any regular place.

But since the philosophy of "you should adapt to environment and not awaits the environment to adapt you" still exist in this era, I confidently believes, there will certainly be more amusement visiting, rather than looking it at such pessimistically....

Do everything with all your heart, and there's no one you should feel sorry for in the end of the day - SuperDad