Acidic rain...

Received a sms last week from an anonymous friend - telling me to beware and extra careful should there be sudden rain (means rain comes all of sudden from a sunny day). It could be acidic rain. Due to the volcano ash released from some stupid volcano somewhere in the corner of the globe, and in addition to the current worsening weather conditions, most of European continents (and Asia too) may receive acidic rain anytime between April til end of May....

Well, firstly, I got to thank that friend I don't know who. He/She must be really watching over me all this while for her/him to send such sms to me.

Secondly, ladies & gentlemen, it rained at Makati this evening. Yes, sudden and acidic rain. Bingo!

I was at home when it rained, so I waited until the rain stops. As I walked across the streets, I think some rainwater fell down from a tree, and hit on my right hand. As any normal reaction would do, I just shake off the excess water and continue with my life.

Now, some parts of my right hand is red-ish and it comes in patches. Well, it looks exactly like you had some warm (not hot) water running over your skin's reaction. It's not painful, just slightly itchy. I rushed to the washroom and let the water flows on my skin for about 5-minutes. Yes, non-stop 5 minutes.

Now, it looks and feel better.

Gawd damn acidic rain. Gawd damn anyone who willingly, consciously and proudly contribute to all this environmental sickness.

"the Moment" at 就想賴着妳

Of course...of course....only pictures is never enough. Since I'm going head-over-heels crazy with this movie, let me have the opportunity to capture, and keep some of those magical moments a.k.a the-Moment.. as I was touched with the very tinee-weenie little details in the script.

Well, people may just tell me Life is just a Dream, and more often than not...I feel an obligation to dump that thinking away from me. I need to survive, and to achieve certain survival skills, gotta put both my feet very firmly down to earth. But yet, there should be an invisible vulnerability that lives inside me; give a good knock on my head and says - hey, life is short gal. dream a little dream isn't so difficult after all.

this guy, 項羽平...is just like a red button that works in my memories. Once you hit it, I'm just like a child again! and 楊果, don't remind me that this kind of girl can't survive in today's materialistic world, because I know such sweet innocence will certainly makes a path to find happiness.

And of course...I finally believe that everyone of us should have a 項羽平-ism joining our lives and makes a great combi of 平-果 fairytale...!

ohh...meltz.

Down.with.Love 就想賴着妳

Somebody...Something....Sometime....Some-whatever....remind me to buy this DVD collectible when I get my ass HOME this Sept...fuhhh~ this Movie has the greatest impact in my life after all these years watching idol-series....

P/s: Definitely NOT because there's ELLA in there, and definitely NOT because some might think Jerry is superbly cute....it's because of 項羽平.

This the feeling I had about L.O.V.E

You know, if there's a second person in this room now, that person can surely be stunned seeing me all blushed up and my heart is pumping so fast....I'm now living in a state of mind that just more than words can describe - happy...touched and ...SO-IN-LOVE.....

I never knew what I really count as romantic, or simply the kind of feelings I've always wished to have, or maybe it's just an imagination I always had but decided to put it at the back of my materialistic mind....I don't know...But tonight, or dawn today, I've finally got back a feeling, a very very personal touch of what I would call this four-letter word L-O-V-E...it feels just like first love again...

This makes me believe that love really does not have any boundaries, it doesn't matter if you are just that 15-going-on-16 puppy blush, or it's a first sight first love methodology, or those long time couples awaiting to face the challenges ahead...or just simply happily married couple like my SuperMom&Dad!

I don't want to be tied down with conventional love anymore. I don't want people to tell me that the flame does goes off after a few years of living-in. I don't want to know that love is not the main source of live. I don't want to be running away from that pleasurable sensation of falling in love all over again....

I've seen it, and I believe I'm also just like any regular girl....needing a good portion of love.

aLL about doGGies..!

I went to Power Bookstore at Greenbelt last Sunday. it was just newly renovated, and it's good to browse around and see if there's major changes to its book selections. I found myself a corner full with books about pets...doggies; precisely. Randomly I picked a book named "Your Life with a Pet" and I started to make myself comfortable sitting on the carpeted floor. I flipped every pages so slowly, afraid I might lose some very important details in the book. There were also many pictures published by the author; each captures the most mesmerizing moment of man's best friend. I could still remember a picture taken of two shar-pei, a white and a black one. I couldn't help but chuckled along the way....

I suddenly thought "Can I have a puppy, instead of a baby..?"

I have no idea why was I thinking that dude....maybe I really don't like children that much. I mean, not that I hate children at all...I love my little JJ many years ago. And Wayne, he's always getting my utmost attention. And some babies or kids I see in the lift, at shopping malls, along the road - I don't hate them. It's just that I don't even want to imagine (let alone try to have) a kid of my own. So.....uncomfortable!

Well, of course this subject is very irrelevant to me at this point of time. Why should I worry about it at this stage of my life? It's not like I have any family planning right ahead of me. But truly, it will be great if my future husband have similar preference about a doggie pet over human re-production =.=|||

LOLx...!

craving for desserts...

Feels so good that I won't be working tomorrow...and maybe a day after tomorrow...whatever. It's Saturday nite passing through hippy Sunday again. I'm just wondering, if I'm at KL, what would I be doing now...?...?...?

Suddenly feels like having desserts. I miss some people, some place, some desserts now...Maybe it's those traditional and hongkie style desserts that strikes my appetite at this particular hour.

Never liked Filipino desserts much, all they have is that typical halo-halo (which we might want to call ice kacang). Hmmmmm.....guess I'll still have to settle with that not-so-nice mango tapioca @ North Park tomorrow...

Wouldn't it be nice if I have a warm bowl of 花生糊 / 汤圆 / 蛋挞 / 豆腐花 ... and yes, I suddenly think of 砵仔糕...红豆糕...龙须糖...errrgghhhh I'm goin crazy!

celebrating ME..!

Didn't update that new ME yet...feels it's a major change in me which I would still want to remember after many many years down the road....
..and just before I sign-off, a big big applause to the camera shots. It's ecstatic! guess who's holding the device.... *blink blink*








p/s:nice onot..?

I'm protesting .. again ..

Everything and everyone seems to be moving so-so-so slowly lately. I'm still giving my precious 10-11 hours of work everyday, but it feels like ages. I'd really wanted to stand up and say "hey, does anyone ever had a life here..?" Total silence........

If I could record my voice in blogger, I would have shouted on top of my rotten lungs.....well, rotten lungs for too much puffing. Wonder if I would have rotting kidneys for too much drinks as well.

And everyday I'm so worn-out, but I just could not have a good quality sleep. I wouldn't know what time I dozed off, but I will just be awake before the alarm starts to irritate me. If my alarm can talk, it would surely complain that it feels useless with me. Because I don't make full use of it anymore. There wasn't one day that I wakes up from the alarm sound.

And yes, my body is no longer listening to me. I said eat, she said not hungry....I said massage, she said lazy...I said sleep, and here I am blogging. Guess my body is really turning into ME...stubborn.

So let's see if I said stay awake and surf internet...will she said sleepyzzz head..?

海派甜心

gawd, I LOVE THIS..! Okay, my confession begins:

I have always liked Show Luo. Maybe it's his smiles, maybe it's his songs. Yeah, I know he didn't write all the lyrics by himself, so he's really not that specially talented right?!?!But...maybe his songs...the whole combination of lyrics and rhythm serves me a great package.

Rainie is such a sweet sweet gal. Too bad I already have SHE taken a place in my favorite list. If not, she could be next.

Whooopppss...didn't I just said I love the movie..? What about the actors and actresses then... @.@

陳寶茱 - lolx I couldn't believe such names still exists in drama nowadays. This character is so similar to what I thought I was. A gal talking out loud for the sake of protecting herself. A gal not afraid to speak out, but knows deep in her heart that there's really isn't any need to explain anything if nobody believes her. A gal seemed solid from the outside, but does breakdown in certain times asking why is she living in such state of mind. A gal doesn't really know what she's fighting for...Abothen....as I was thinking so deep about this girl in the drama, my friend cut all my fantasies off and said "你能停止在自己的世界生活.....ok 你不要有单独的感觉,好不好..?" Huh~ who wakes me up?!!?!?

薛海 a.k.a 林達浪 - I can't really tell if I'm falling in love with 達浪 or 薛海...Well, 達浪 is certainly what I'm seeking for all this while, but sometimes reality is always reminding me that people like 達浪 is either dead or taken. I think they are all dead. But if there's really someone like 達浪, I truly believe a long lasting love does really exist after all. But yet, perfection don't lasts long. 男人不坏, 女人不爱...haha...that's why the story evolves someone called 薛海. Whoa.. smart, rich and loyal! what else could 寶茱姐 asked for. Give me a guy like that, I trade my life...lolx! Well...well...only if you watched the movie, you know 薛海 is not just that regular, typical richie guy-next-door. In fact, let me tell you, I cried because of 薛海, not 達浪. Because I believe the hardest part of falling in love is falling out of love....

The End

p/s: dear blogger friends, this movie is highly recommended if you suddenly feel boring with your life! Enjoy ya...

my mind is playing games with me again...

Makati is never a strange place for me anymore since I took my first step here back in July 2009. It was quite difficult to adjust my life here in the first few weeks, and after having some bad encounters at Caspo, I thought about giving up on this place. I thought I would never want to be back here again, irregardless where I would be elsewhere. But somehow, I was blessed with a few good things in life once in awhile, like I had some crazy fun outings here with new friends, I've learned an industry I never thought I'd lay my hands on...and I have tried to spice things up with someone special to me...I even had my worst health here....so much memories flooded me. So, when I knew I have a better opportunity with Stellent, it strikes me like "I must take this new challenge, because I might not know it, but I may be loving this place & this life here already"... I was never this sure that I want to be back here...Makati city PHP

But now, why would I feel like I don't belong here anyway?

Why would I miss HOME so much, that it's so much stronger compared to that of my first visit to Makati? Why would every time I think of those happy times I had in that last 3 weeks, I would just puff another ciggie away, hoping I too can puff away those memories I had? HOME as not only dad & mom...I miss everyone and everything way back there, a place I really call HOME because it's complete.

I'm always feeling as if SOMEONE is waiting for me to be back again...

Every time I'm getting a little bit comfortable of my life here, there's just a voice telling me that I don't belong here. A voice I do not recognize, but seems so familiar to me. Just like magic. Just so far, yet so near to my heart. It's bugging to an extent that I want to be HOME, I want to know which voice is calling to me.

It's frightening. It's bittersweet.

I wish that voice just go away. I don't want it bugging me anymore. I want that voice to just understand that I have a challenge to accomplish here, and luring me to be HOME now is just too difficult for me to do.

I can't have all the best from both worlds. I can't. Can you hear me? If you can, just give a distance away....but don't forget to remind me occasionally that I still have YOU way back HOME, loving me with every single heartbeat....

a week struggling @ Stellent Corp

Since I've said that I would comment about my new job in the weekend, there goes:

d Environment:
I would really prefer to be here than Caspo actually. Most settings suits me better; culture, office settings, nature of work and the freedom of work controls. I have no idea I would still do great with that Risk & Compliance thing, but I know I'm putting effort each day and hopes to polish the best out of me. I'm still working long hours like i did last time at Caspo, but basically all expats here works through the night and day. What's the point of going home early anyway. It's not like there's someone waiting for me to be home or what?!?!

d Post: Risk Management & Compliance Analyst
fuhhh~ what a name. I always feel too burden with this name actually. I am, as I'm called; dealing with loads of unspeakable private & confidential stuffs in the company. One downtime of this job is, I can hardly sit down and find a friend to talk about my job. Since I must zip my mouth on most things I do, where's the fun of gossiping and lamenting about the toughness I faced daily...? More responsibility makes more stress. Let's see when I'd go nuts again.

d People:
hah~ this the hardest part you know. Let's see if it's better if i present it this way:

myBig Boss level: Alex Neo
--> young, charismatic, calm, Singaporean, IT background, been keeping lots of stress to himself I think cos he's always seen puffing alone thinking deep, always speaks in a deep low sexy tone in any situation...that's about it and I hope he's good boss.

SMT level: Wyming, Andrew, Jess, Jazz, Carti, Ruey, Ron...and a few I can't remember their names
--> well, a bunch of decision making people. Not interested to talk further, because I don't want to make any comments about somebody.....

Compliance SM: Joyce
--> not even 1/4 of kcy@maa

Risk M: Lynn
--> not even 1/6 of yh@maa (now, this worth's a BIG laugh!)

and many other people too lazy to mention here, unless they step on my tail some other time. But I hope that doesn't happens.....

God bless!

i'm so lethargic!

Been having sleepless nights since I came back to Makati...and I haven't been taking my regular 3 meals per day lately. Food was all about a few bites here and there....and feels like losing appetite and interest on any main meals. From 47kg weighed prior to my departure, I'm going down to 45.8kg now. It was only less than 3 weeks of measurement! What's wrong with me?

Met with a bunch of ex-colleagues after work today. Everybody seems to be teasing me about my weight (I thought they should be teasing me about my hair..!?!?) and they were all saying that I put down weight because "I'm missing someone at Makati..." arrggghh...a bunch of craps again.

I never really care that I would put on with some little more flesh actually. In fact, I love the way I am at 46-48kg....my GP says it's healthier for me to maintain that. Well, she's warning me about my sickness again and kept on nagging me of re-occurrence if I'm not keeping an eye of myself. So lame. But I didn't have any intention to lose weight at all....

Will get a day's off this weekend. Even if I feel like it, don't think will be back to office this weekend. I'm gonna call my massage therapist for a full body massage, and hopes it brings out all my mood for....food....again!

Let's talk about work this weekend. And before signing off, God bless SuperDad & SuperMom. Miss them!

Life alignment's ready...

Finally unpacked my huge luggage and dumped all stuffs into my wardrobe. Guess I've finally settle down again here...emotionally and erm.....physically. Although pieces of sweet memories at HOME flashes through my mind once awhile, but I know I wouldn't be any happier if I stayed at HOME; still lazying around. Irregardless of what or how my new life would be tagged with Stellent, I know it should worth a try. As I promised Daddy, I'm gonna make sure I enjoy doing all things here in Makati. Or else, HOME is always my first choice.

I am somewhat nervous about reporting to work this coming Monday. New position, new colleagues, new responsibilities....it feels like starting all afresh again here. I don't know if I would blend in well, or it might end up like the prior post I had with Caspo...but never try never know. I do look forward to it, but of course with a certain level of skepticism. I do have my reservoirs in handling matters and people here. It feels a great need to protect myself even before any desirable attacks sets in. Guess its really such a jungle of survival whenever you work abroad. Especially here in Caspo/Stellent. What a place!

I miss Mom

It was a long, boring 4 hours flight back to Manila alone. I could hardly doze off during the flight, feeling uncomfortable and restless throughout the journey. As I reached Easton about 6-ish in the morning, it felt so.....empty inside me. I know this place very well,my own room hasn't changed since I left, all my stuffs are still intact, my bed linen's still smell the same. Same? It doesn't feel the same anymore.

After dilly-delly about things, I started to feel lethargic by 10-ish....and fell asleep. Like a baby, I was dreaming off with lots of things during my sleep...mostly sweet dreams I reckoned. Because I felt good in this sleep.

A sudden conscious stroke me and I rose from my sweety dreams. I had a glance at my phone, it's 5.20pm.

My room is so dark, it gave me chill. I wanted to shout "Mommmmmmy" like I did in the past 3 weeks at HOME, but I held back. This is not HOME. No mommy here.

Maybe I have not adjusted my alignment yet. Or maybe it was really such warming experience that I had way back at my very own HOME, that I know clearly how much I miss HOME. It's really useless to deny; that I'm not lonely here, sometimes.

I miss all @ HOME....

Amazing 3 weeks @ HOME....

There goes my so-called holiday at HOME for 3 weeks..now I'm back again to a space of unlimited surprises. A place that I will never gonna know what will happen next, an interesting but somehow rather lonely place.

It was so much fun and relaxing way back at HOME....but of course who wouldn't be exotic when you practically don't need to work, and all you do is eat + sleep + lazying around the whole day!??!?

I'm very much thankful for SuperDad & SuperMom for their time and "patience" while I was at home. Y'Know, I'm always somewhat a nuisance too, always nagging them to stop nagging....huh-huh~....but they were great cool bags, and they will always be...love them!

My bunch of whacky crazy buddies are bravo too! This round of trip gave me most opportunity to meet up with friends from all different backgrounds - college, ex-colleagues, CPRians, ex-clubbing mates....bla bla bla...so good to have them around, and gawd I'm thankful for all their time spent with me!

Happy times does have it's ending too. Well, I'm looking forward to Sept, because I'll be back HOME again by then!